How I know I'm highly on edge.
I cried for probably about 2 hours because there are those nasty orange beetle things in my home and my bug phobia has gotten so out of hand that i can't kill them.
I used to love playing with bugs as a kid. I don't know what did it for me but I was bawling like a child who just skinned its knees.
This is ridiculous. And I know why. It's because I'm incredibly stressed out.
My Programming teacher doesn't explain anything and she has chapters listed that don't exist in the book she told me that I needed.
I bought another book that doesn't even seem to be part of her planner.
I'm stuck at a desk job. The only place in Springfield that could hire me, won't hire me. (Jimmy is talking to his boss about that tomorrow because he works there) and I NEED to be back in EMS. I can't do this desk BS anymore.
At the same time, i don't want the drama that will ensue with me working at LifeStar, but it shouldn't be too bad, honestly. Especially if Jimmy and I are on the same shift.
I hope he can get me hired there. It'd be nice to have that kind of schedule again.
Next semester will suck 'cause if I work Monday, I work Thursday, and the way I have it set, I will have classes on both of those days.
I'm seriously considering taking 2 online classes.
I just had to kill another bug. Rather than being afraid now, I'm just irritated. I just want them to go away.
I vacuumed up like 4 of them. I squashed 3 of them and there's still another one flying around somewhere.
They're such a f******g nuisance.
GAH!
Jimmy is home from work tomorrow and he will kill them while he's home. Then he's gone again Wednesday night. *sigh*
I used to love playing with bugs as a kid. I don't know what did it for me but I was bawling like a child who just skinned its knees.
This is ridiculous. And I know why. It's because I'm incredibly stressed out.
My Programming teacher doesn't explain anything and she has chapters listed that don't exist in the book she told me that I needed.
I bought another book that doesn't even seem to be part of her planner.
I'm stuck at a desk job. The only place in Springfield that could hire me, won't hire me. (Jimmy is talking to his boss about that tomorrow because he works there) and I NEED to be back in EMS. I can't do this desk BS anymore.
At the same time, i don't want the drama that will ensue with me working at LifeStar, but it shouldn't be too bad, honestly. Especially if Jimmy and I are on the same shift.
I hope he can get me hired there. It'd be nice to have that kind of schedule again.
Next semester will suck 'cause if I work Monday, I work Thursday, and the way I have it set, I will have classes on both of those days.
I'm seriously considering taking 2 online classes.
I just had to kill another bug. Rather than being afraid now, I'm just irritated. I just want them to go away.
I vacuumed up like 4 of them. I squashed 3 of them and there's still another one flying around somewhere.
They're such a f******g nuisance.
GAH!
Jimmy is home from work tomorrow and he will kill them while he's home. Then he's gone again Wednesday night. *sigh*