Dissatisfied
I have been extremely dissatisfied with life as of lately. Either it is the end of college, the man putting me down in the theatre department, or just feeling left out of the party scene at Willamette. I'm just tired of the same old crap every day, I'm angry at everything, and disinterested and feeling unable to relate to others. I feel like I've lost interest in caring about social situations. Yet, at the same time, I crave them constantly, and need continuous approval and stimulation.
When I look at my work in the undergrad program, I don't feel elated by it. My thesis was the closest I got to feeling whole and appreciative of the experience. I'm just not happy. I'm unable to do what I want in the department, but the department always tells me how appreciative they are to have me. Well, why didn't anyone consider that I really did want to be on stage for "Adding Machine?"
As well, I feel that my communication levels have gone down drastically. I cannot understand others easily and vice verse.
A lot of this might just be from the lack of sleep, but how much? How much more unhappiness will I have to put up with before I'm through? I'm just too frustrated and tired to really go on at this point.
When I look at my work in the undergrad program, I don't feel elated by it. My thesis was the closest I got to feeling whole and appreciative of the experience. I'm just not happy. I'm unable to do what I want in the department, but the department always tells me how appreciative they are to have me. Well, why didn't anyone consider that I really did want to be on stage for "Adding Machine?"
As well, I feel that my communication levels have gone down drastically. I cannot understand others easily and vice verse.
A lot of this might just be from the lack of sleep, but how much? How much more unhappiness will I have to put up with before I'm through? I'm just too frustrated and tired to really go on at this point.