sex and acting
in atypical, i feel like a jackass. i'm the only one who can't get out of my head. we repeat and repeat the meisner exercise, but i can't stop thinking. i never stop thinking. i don't know how to stop. i tried asking other classmates, and only sent myself into a fury of not wanting to help. (this in turn did not help me at all, as i was already feeling sensitive, and on the verge of an emotional storm due to the talk of rape in the class, and the idea of abandonment. thank you mother and aaron for making me the fuck case i am.) so, i cried and cried and cried. when i thought it out. (see, never stop thinking.) the only time i don't think is when i'm having sex. it's that primal instinct that just happens. but how do i implement that in to the meisner technique? i guess i need to listen to my vagina and let that tell me what's going on. i need to listen to everything else. i need to grunt what i am receiving. i think i'm on to something. shit, i'm supposed to meet people at the bistro. i look like crap.