#concernsandthoughts
i have low self-esteem.
i remembered my secondary school teacher once asked me why i am not confident of myself, dare not speak up in class, and then attributed to the fact that i am the middle child of the family.
another friend of mine attributed to the fact that i am a free-thinker, and i have got nothing to hold onto.
they both have got a point, and it really bothers me that i myself have no clue as to what exactly i am afraid of. i feel ridiculously nervous when i am speaking up in class, and i mean ridiculously so - i will flush and jumble up words and say stupid things that i never meant to say. even among a group of friends, i hate it when the attention is all on me.
Things NEED to change.
i remembered my secondary school teacher once asked me why i am not confident of myself, dare not speak up in class, and then attributed to the fact that i am the middle child of the family.
another friend of mine attributed to the fact that i am a free-thinker, and i have got nothing to hold onto.
they both have got a point, and it really bothers me that i myself have no clue as to what exactly i am afraid of. i feel ridiculously nervous when i am speaking up in class, and i mean ridiculously so - i will flush and jumble up words and say stupid things that i never meant to say. even among a group of friends, i hate it when the attention is all on me.
Things NEED to change.