Boulevard of broken dreams
So yeah
I wanted to take our ever so often practiced walk with Dwalsh today, and it was foiled.
I'm very not pleased.
Iono, its weird. When I went out with Meggs, this guy Frank(creepy smelly pedophile, only not really, he's honestly quite nice, he just creeps me out) was asking for my number and stuff and I wanted to say that I was dating Dwalsh, but I didn't want to put him out, and Meghan wouldn't go for it.
Then all the sudden it was weird. I kinda wanted him to be there to laugh at me in the way that only Dwalsh can(by that I mean at everything I do). Wow, that sounds so corny, its sad. But very true. So I realised that I hadn't seen Dwalsh all break, and so I wanted to have our little outing around our happy corner of our little town.
So that brings us to now. Jenn and Lex evidently called to take Dwalsh away, and he was like, oh well, call back, cuz I'm meeting with Becca to take a walk. The next thing I know, Lex and Jenn are pulling up and they wanna rent a movie and watch it at Dwalsh's.
Well in my valiant effort to chill with Dwalsh and maybe have us go get something to eat when I'm off work on Friday, I somehow manage to convince my parents that I am fine, even though my vision is funny, my nose started to bleed again, I was about to puke(again) and such and such, and such and such, they finally let me go.
And Lex and Jenn were waiting outside my house and we drive up to Dwalshs and then, I would get dirty looks from the girls if I so much as looked at Dwalsh.
And I was on the other side of the room being cold and feeling left out so I sail across onto Jenn, and ended up(I PROMISE I DIDNT MEAN IT) next to Dwalsh. So the next time he got up I got 2 dirty ass looks and she switched places with me. I dont get it. I mean, I know like 3 girls who claim to be in love with the boy, and who all hate me because I'm his neighbor. Well good for frikin me.
And like it was weird b/c a certain friend of mine, who shall remain nameless, was like, "so, are you two dating?" of course I said no. I mean at that point it was kind of an issue, but I chose to ignore it. I'm good like that. Anyway, so I said no, and she was like "oh you can tell me the truth... its ok" so I was like, oh okay... yeeeaaaahhh, no. And she was like, oh, okay, because I thought you were, and I was like, yea I know, most people do, but we are just neighbors, and so she said, good, so you wont mind if I date him, I mean, when I thought you guys were dating, it made me realise how much of a crush I have on him. And I wanted to kill her. Because the last time someone said shit like that to me it was about the love of my life(or so I thought) and they ended up basically fucking each other and lying to me about it.
ok, cooling off, sry about that
So yeahhh, I don't remember where I was going with that except to call her a quarter whore. But she really is a wonderful person, I like her lots... just not as someone who is going to view Dwalsh as a thing to be triumphed, to own. I HATE people like that (even though I am about to contradict myself) I wouldn't say that I'm angry at her becuase I like Dwalsh, but I wouldn't say that I'm not. I have no idea. I think that I'm really confused by this whole Todd thing, how my feelings for my friend screwed it up beyond repair.
Maybe I'm being "selfish" over something that isn't mine, but I would almost go as far as say that he is my "territory"(I swear its not as bad as it sounds. For all you guys who read this, I know there are atleast 3 of you. Every guy is some girls "territory" Unless your gay, and even then, sometimes you are. Its just the way it goes.)Its weird though because I don't want things to be weird around us. I really don't. I love my Dwalsh, take it how you may, and maybe I take it more than one way too, I don't know, all I know is that as of now he is my bestest friend/kid brother. And I would not trade it for the world.
But back to the point of this article. I hope that we can go to lunch and hang out without everyone else making it weird. So heres to hoping that without everyone else, it won't be weird...
Blah, my nose is bleeding again. yay
See you all laters
All my love,
b
I wanted to take our ever so often practiced walk with Dwalsh today, and it was foiled.
I'm very not pleased.
Iono, its weird. When I went out with Meggs, this guy Frank(creepy smelly pedophile, only not really, he's honestly quite nice, he just creeps me out) was asking for my number and stuff and I wanted to say that I was dating Dwalsh, but I didn't want to put him out, and Meghan wouldn't go for it.
Then all the sudden it was weird. I kinda wanted him to be there to laugh at me in the way that only Dwalsh can(by that I mean at everything I do). Wow, that sounds so corny, its sad. But very true. So I realised that I hadn't seen Dwalsh all break, and so I wanted to have our little outing around our happy corner of our little town.
So that brings us to now. Jenn and Lex evidently called to take Dwalsh away, and he was like, oh well, call back, cuz I'm meeting with Becca to take a walk. The next thing I know, Lex and Jenn are pulling up and they wanna rent a movie and watch it at Dwalsh's.
Well in my valiant effort to chill with Dwalsh and maybe have us go get something to eat when I'm off work on Friday, I somehow manage to convince my parents that I am fine, even though my vision is funny, my nose started to bleed again, I was about to puke(again) and such and such, and such and such, they finally let me go.
And Lex and Jenn were waiting outside my house and we drive up to Dwalshs and then, I would get dirty looks from the girls if I so much as looked at Dwalsh.
And I was on the other side of the room being cold and feeling left out so I sail across onto Jenn, and ended up(I PROMISE I DIDNT MEAN IT) next to Dwalsh. So the next time he got up I got 2 dirty ass looks and she switched places with me. I dont get it. I mean, I know like 3 girls who claim to be in love with the boy, and who all hate me because I'm his neighbor. Well good for frikin me.
And like it was weird b/c a certain friend of mine, who shall remain nameless, was like, "so, are you two dating?" of course I said no. I mean at that point it was kind of an issue, but I chose to ignore it. I'm good like that. Anyway, so I said no, and she was like "oh you can tell me the truth... its ok" so I was like, oh okay... yeeeaaaahhh, no. And she was like, oh, okay, because I thought you were, and I was like, yea I know, most people do, but we are just neighbors, and so she said, good, so you wont mind if I date him, I mean, when I thought you guys were dating, it made me realise how much of a crush I have on him. And I wanted to kill her. Because the last time someone said shit like that to me it was about the love of my life(or so I thought) and they ended up basically fucking each other and lying to me about it.
ok, cooling off, sry about that
So yeahhh, I don't remember where I was going with that except to call her a quarter whore. But she really is a wonderful person, I like her lots... just not as someone who is going to view Dwalsh as a thing to be triumphed, to own. I HATE people like that (even though I am about to contradict myself) I wouldn't say that I'm angry at her becuase I like Dwalsh, but I wouldn't say that I'm not. I have no idea. I think that I'm really confused by this whole Todd thing, how my feelings for my friend screwed it up beyond repair.
Maybe I'm being "selfish" over something that isn't mine, but I would almost go as far as say that he is my "territory"(I swear its not as bad as it sounds. For all you guys who read this, I know there are atleast 3 of you. Every guy is some girls "territory" Unless your gay, and even then, sometimes you are. Its just the way it goes.)Its weird though because I don't want things to be weird around us. I really don't. I love my Dwalsh, take it how you may, and maybe I take it more than one way too, I don't know, all I know is that as of now he is my bestest friend/kid brother. And I would not trade it for the world.
But back to the point of this article. I hope that we can go to lunch and hang out without everyone else making it weird. So heres to hoping that without everyone else, it won't be weird...
Blah, my nose is bleeding again. yay
See you all laters
All my love,
b