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this has been one weird week. i can't even begin to tell ya. but i've felt sooo rushed and hurried and it's summer for goodness sakes! i think next week will be better. i'll make it better. i'm tired of running around. i'm tired of feeling like i have a bazillion things to do and a bazillion people to see. i want to feel like last summer (when i wasn't in class of course) and i just had a simple job that i loved doing, a clean house, and lots of time to do whatever i wanted with. so far i keep pretending like i have time but i don't so i only end up half accomplished. and it's annoying. so today i'm playing "catch up" and with a little luck "get ahead."
among other strange occurences this week apprently i hurt someone's feelings. now that may seem like not such a big deal to some people but i honestly can't ever recollect hurting someone's feelings before. so it's been bothering me cuz i really didn't mean it i was just being sarcastic. so now i'm wondering if sometimes when i've been sarcastic if i hurt other people and they just never said anything. so i feel like a jerk. in my family if you don't get teased you wonder if you're still loved. hassling is one way of my showing love and i guess i just overstepped a boundary i didn't know it even existed.
in other news, i had a sudden revelation this morning about some other things that have ben concerning me and i actually feel a little better. only trouble is now i kinda know the answer to the why but there's not much i can do about it which is slightly annoying. but at least i understand things a little schooch better. then again, maye there is something i can do. hmm, i'll have to turn that one through my brain a few more times.
me with a built-in radar, me with a cushion hard, winding up number one on the all-time loser's card.
I should forget you but I won't, should hate you but I don't, it didn't turn out like I planned but if you smile and wave your hand,
I'd go out and hire a band, and wait for one more chance, at the same old song and dance.
among other strange occurences this week apprently i hurt someone's feelings. now that may seem like not such a big deal to some people but i honestly can't ever recollect hurting someone's feelings before. so it's been bothering me cuz i really didn't mean it i was just being sarcastic. so now i'm wondering if sometimes when i've been sarcastic if i hurt other people and they just never said anything. so i feel like a jerk. in my family if you don't get teased you wonder if you're still loved. hassling is one way of my showing love and i guess i just overstepped a boundary i didn't know it even existed.
in other news, i had a sudden revelation this morning about some other things that have ben concerning me and i actually feel a little better. only trouble is now i kinda know the answer to the why but there's not much i can do about it which is slightly annoying. but at least i understand things a little schooch better. then again, maye there is something i can do. hmm, i'll have to turn that one through my brain a few more times.
me with a built-in radar, me with a cushion hard, winding up number one on the all-time loser's card.
I should forget you but I won't, should hate you but I don't, it didn't turn out like I planned but if you smile and wave your hand,
I'd go out and hire a band, and wait for one more chance, at the same old song and dance.