So, today.
I know this is weird...I haven't posted in here in a while. But the school computer system won't let me on myspace, so..
Today CJ broke up with me. Tomorrow was going to be our two month anniversary. Surprisingly, I'm not as sad about it as I should be. I guess that's because I figure it would've ended anyway. I just loved talking about the stupid futuristic stuff with him..we actually talked about having kids and all that...boy, was I dumb. But...it just wasn't meant to be. So...no worries, I guess.
I've been saying it since 2nd block, but I'm sure it'll hit me in a few hours.
Like, three people have said, 'omg! now you can go out with kyle again!'...but I really don't want to. Besides, it's only been like a couple of hours...I'm really not thinking about getting a new boyfriend. At all.
..I'm kind of going to miss his family. I really liked them all. They were nice..they liked me, I think. It's always a big deal for me when my boyfriend's family likes me..alot of times, they haven't.
Well, atleast he didn't go Christmas shopping yet. Won't have to waste his money.. he was gonna buy me something expensive.
I need to get my cd burner to work.
...and..I don't know. I do feel a sense of loss. But it'll go away. It's only normal. I suppose it was just a big surprise. I think he likes someone else. I'm glad he didn't actually tell me that, though...it'd be a blow to my self esteem. I'll bet she has tons of confidence..and she knows exactly who it is, and she doesn't flirt with other guys, and she watched football, and her hair is short and straight. She doesn't have to do anything to it, it's just like that. And she doesn't worry about her weight. And she's ALWAYS sweet towards him. Always. Never argues with anything he says, the little bitch.
I'm glad I know how to cheer myself up. Now I'm sort of laughing in my head...getting angry about some girl that might not even exist.
She might though. And if she does, I bet her name is Alicia.
I've learned some things. As I do from every relationship I've had. So I'm glad, because it was a nice experience while it lasted.
I wonder what my mother will say. She'll be surprised, of course..
If I ever get another boyfriend, I want him to have nice teeth. Atleast white. I can't stand not white teeth..
So from now on, no more looking crappy. I slacked when I had a boyfriend, and look where that got me. Stephanie never looks crappy...and she's my role model. So no more looking crappy. Fo sho.
Ummm...well, this turned out longer then I thought it'd be. I just had more to say then I thought...so that's it.
Love,
Stephie
Today CJ broke up with me. Tomorrow was going to be our two month anniversary. Surprisingly, I'm not as sad about it as I should be. I guess that's because I figure it would've ended anyway. I just loved talking about the stupid futuristic stuff with him..we actually talked about having kids and all that...boy, was I dumb. But...it just wasn't meant to be. So...no worries, I guess.
I've been saying it since 2nd block, but I'm sure it'll hit me in a few hours.
Like, three people have said, 'omg! now you can go out with kyle again!'...but I really don't want to. Besides, it's only been like a couple of hours...I'm really not thinking about getting a new boyfriend. At all.
..I'm kind of going to miss his family. I really liked them all. They were nice..they liked me, I think. It's always a big deal for me when my boyfriend's family likes me..alot of times, they haven't.
Well, atleast he didn't go Christmas shopping yet. Won't have to waste his money.. he was gonna buy me something expensive.
I need to get my cd burner to work.
...and..I don't know. I do feel a sense of loss. But it'll go away. It's only normal. I suppose it was just a big surprise. I think he likes someone else. I'm glad he didn't actually tell me that, though...it'd be a blow to my self esteem. I'll bet she has tons of confidence..and she knows exactly who it is, and she doesn't flirt with other guys, and she watched football, and her hair is short and straight. She doesn't have to do anything to it, it's just like that. And she doesn't worry about her weight. And she's ALWAYS sweet towards him. Always. Never argues with anything he says, the little bitch.
I'm glad I know how to cheer myself up. Now I'm sort of laughing in my head...getting angry about some girl that might not even exist.
She might though. And if she does, I bet her name is Alicia.
I've learned some things. As I do from every relationship I've had. So I'm glad, because it was a nice experience while it lasted.
I wonder what my mother will say. She'll be surprised, of course..
If I ever get another boyfriend, I want him to have nice teeth. Atleast white. I can't stand not white teeth..
So from now on, no more looking crappy. I slacked when I had a boyfriend, and look where that got me. Stephanie never looks crappy...and she's my role model. So no more looking crappy. Fo sho.
Ummm...well, this turned out longer then I thought it'd be. I just had more to say then I thought...so that's it.
Love,
Stephie