winter air kills my hands and sucks the moisture from my hair
tuesday was our one month. <3 we went christmas light viewing. it was very cute.
yesterday was ryan's birthday. i bought him a head automatica cd. i cannot wait to give him his x-mas gift. and he cannot wait to give me mine. so we are being cheaters and exchanging them tomorrow.
reading carolyn's entry made me realize how much i have drifted away from the people that had the biggest impact on me. even my "best friend in the whole world" and i are not at all what we used to be. [which seemed awfully sudden, but upon reflection, a little less so...] and coming to that realization has to be one of the most emotionally charged experiences that i have ever had. but i've accepted it. because life is about growing--up and apart.
all the people that have been left behind, and all those that left me behind, are not forgotten. sometimes the names and faces blur, but the memories remain well enough. it makes me terribly sad sometimes to realize that all the people i held so closely are not even in sight anymore; but i have no regrets.
i greatly love and appreciate all of the people who came in and out of my life. i wouldn't be the person i am without them. without you. i have changed so much in these past few years, that i can hardly recognize the person i was back then. but i am glad. because i don't think i've ever been happier with myself. self-acceptance is wonderful, and it's finally in my grasp.
i do miss you all, though. you know who you are. and even if we've lost touch altogether, i wish you the best. i could never have grown into the person i am without your contribution to my life. thank you.
p.s. i am officially a college student.
yesterday was ryan's birthday. i bought him a head automatica cd. i cannot wait to give him his x-mas gift. and he cannot wait to give me mine. so we are being cheaters and exchanging them tomorrow.
reading carolyn's entry made me realize how much i have drifted away from the people that had the biggest impact on me. even my "best friend in the whole world" and i are not at all what we used to be. [which seemed awfully sudden, but upon reflection, a little less so...] and coming to that realization has to be one of the most emotionally charged experiences that i have ever had. but i've accepted it. because life is about growing--up and apart.
all the people that have been left behind, and all those that left me behind, are not forgotten. sometimes the names and faces blur, but the memories remain well enough. it makes me terribly sad sometimes to realize that all the people i held so closely are not even in sight anymore; but i have no regrets.
i greatly love and appreciate all of the people who came in and out of my life. i wouldn't be the person i am without them. without you. i have changed so much in these past few years, that i can hardly recognize the person i was back then. but i am glad. because i don't think i've ever been happier with myself. self-acceptance is wonderful, and it's finally in my grasp.
i do miss you all, though. you know who you are. and even if we've lost touch altogether, i wish you the best. i could never have grown into the person i am without your contribution to my life. thank you.
p.s. i am officially a college student.