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It is a shame that today, was such a drag. This morning I got up, and got in the shower and tried to get ready quickly. I got up and everything was going well, and my brother was not able to go to school this morning, because he was throwing up tramendously. Well in that case, I asked my father if I would be able to drive to school, and I thought I was about to finally get a break, and then he snapped at me no and I just was like what ever, and shrugged it off. Well I left the house, and got to school and everything was going normal, I mean I am really mad that I do not have my awesome PE coach or Math teacher anymore, they kind of just made it worth going. Well anyways, its only three days in, I can not be too quick to judge and I understand that. Well anyways school went normal today, and I was really excited about my job interview after school today, and then I got out of school and I was really hoping Amy could come and attend with me, however, that fell through due to my Mother. I feel really bad, that my parents are such cunts about driving and picking, her and/or me up. I mean I feel really bad for her mother and her. Its just not fair, its nothing but a hassle to get me or drive me home. Well aside that, I went to Pac Sun and it was a first that I was the one that wanted to be early, I mean I did not want to be late, or have to run there or anything. I just wanted to get there with ease, for some reason I really clam up and stress about stuff like this, I do not know why. Well I got in there, and I got through the interview aside the one guy that worked there is a Cunt and the manager seems ok, I mean I got in and did what I had to do, and I have an ok feeling about the position but when she said she would call me back in a few weeks, I did not know what to say, I thought it was like spontaneous, "Your Hired" or "You are not what we are looking for." But I do not know. That is not what I recieved, so I got out of the store and had to look for my mom for like an hour because my cell phone is broken and she told me she would be somewhere completley diffrent, than where she ended up. So that kind of irritated me, plus the fact that I did not get immeadiate ressults. Its over with though. Well anyways, I got in the car heading home with my mom and I started arguing about everything with her, it was just a constant battle the entire way home. I feel really bad, but I know she was wrong too. However, I aruged with her the entire way home. I just do not see a way for me to get a job in two days, its like fucking impossible, its like fucking not achievable limits. But yea, so I got home and just went in my room and went to bed. I have such a bad, headache cause I did not sleep last night, due to the fact I slept yesterday I just hope I do not get my sleep patern off, but yea. I then woke up and Amy was on, so I was like Horray, I mean we have not faught in forever, and I was excited to talk to her, yesterday she was in such a good mood and it seemed as if school went well and everything. But today I can not say the same, I knew from the second I IMed her something was wrong and I feel really bad that something was wrong. But I couldnt help and I felt bad, so anyways, I did not know what to do, so shes like just leave me alone and such and I didnt talk to her anymore, I thought it was best for me to get off the internet, cause I just will be put in a bad mood. So I got off of it, and then I just sit here and write. I feel sick right now, I think I have a fever, I think I caught all it from my brother. He was sick yesterday and today and is still sick but I feel like shit now, it sucks. Oh, yea and then I am reading the worst book ever, Tuesdays with Morrie it is horrible. Grrrrrr. Yuck. Do not read. But thats my oppinion and I also am really getting into my English Assignment, its really fun. Its really interesting just retracing my steps, and thinking about me from start to finish, just writing not having to worrying about not impressing anyone and not worrying about spelling or grammar or what not. Its just relaxing, you do not have to live up to any standards or what not. You can be your complete self.
I also find it interesting, due to the fact last night like I said I could not fall asleep, so I was going to write in this in the wee hours of the morning, so I started to write on Notepad well I got tired and feel to sleep like an hour before school started, so anyways, I wrote like a line and it went like this, " I feel shitty today, I do not know why, I feel really sad and really mad and I have a feeling I am not going to be doing too well today." It just fascinates me that today, I indeed did not like the outcome of the rest of the day.
Maybe its just once your in that mood, everything seems that way. But I mean everything seemed bad, or out to get me today, so I do not know. Its just bizzare. Only two more days till the weekend though, Horray!
August 13th, 2006 concert of the summer. SUICIDE SILENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I also find it interesting, due to the fact last night like I said I could not fall asleep, so I was going to write in this in the wee hours of the morning, so I started to write on Notepad well I got tired and feel to sleep like an hour before school started, so anyways, I wrote like a line and it went like this, " I feel shitty today, I do not know why, I feel really sad and really mad and I have a feeling I am not going to be doing too well today." It just fascinates me that today, I indeed did not like the outcome of the rest of the day.
Maybe its just once your in that mood, everything seems that way. But I mean everything seemed bad, or out to get me today, so I do not know. Its just bizzare. Only two more days till the weekend though, Horray!
August 13th, 2006 concert of the summer. SUICIDE SILENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!