Life does suck don't it!!
My mom is not doing good at all. The cancer is now in her Liver, Lungs Brain, Spine,Lower back and both legs. This is the last chemo that they can put her on, except for 1 other and it messed her up bad. She told the Dr. today that if this one did not work she was going to take a long vacation. Meaning she's going to give up. This hurts like hell, and I usually don't let my kids see me cry because I have to be the strong one for them but it's hard you know. It's my mother. The one that never said anything about all the mistakes that I have made in my life but just let me learn from them. The one that has helped me so damn much that I don't know how I could ever repay her. She is a good person and this is what she gets? It isn't fair.
There for awhile, things were going good for me, then something happened, I don't know what it is, but right now, my life is fucked up and I want it back. I hate not being in control. I want to be happy, I want to find the guy that can treat me great and be happy for the way that I love him and treat him. Someone that will be happy for the way that I make them feel, and how I can take care of them. God this so sucks.
It's not been a happy day, I just need to be hugged really long and hard. I need someone right now that is going to lay down with me and hold me while I cry on there shoulder and wipe my tears away. Where is he??
There for awhile, things were going good for me, then something happened, I don't know what it is, but right now, my life is fucked up and I want it back. I hate not being in control. I want to be happy, I want to find the guy that can treat me great and be happy for the way that I love him and treat him. Someone that will be happy for the way that I make them feel, and how I can take care of them. God this so sucks.
It's not been a happy day, I just need to be hugged really long and hard. I need someone right now that is going to lay down with me and hold me while I cry on there shoulder and wipe my tears away. Where is he??