"that's my job."
during my conversation with holly tonight i was reminded exactly why i know she is so right for me:
me-"i don't know why i am getting all emotional right now."
holly-"it's okay honey.when you get like this i just need to make sure i squeeze you tighter."
me-"i'm wishing so much i was in your arms right now."
holly-"yeah.me too."
me-"when i'm in your arms or you're in my arms,everything automatically feels better because all i can think about is how happy i am that we're together."
holly-"i think tonight you should fall asleep in my arms.that way you can be happy."
me-"and i can cuddle up to you?with my head on your shoulder?and you will lean your head down to mine?"
holly-"yup."
me-"you know what i really hate?that we have to be so good at saying goodbye."
holly-"yeaaaaaah.i know.but it will all pay off in the end.you know that."
me-"yeah i do know."
holly-"and we can do this.we are sorting through all the rough spots now.we wont have to do that later.and our relationship is going to keep getting stronger and stronger.and by the end it is going to be so sturdy strong.we wont even break a sweat about anything.it's like oh we got it under control."
me-"yeah honey.i like that idea.it's going to pay off."
holly-"so don't worry."
me-"i just want to make sure you want to do this for as long as it takes.do you?"
holly-"yeah honey."
me-"good.me too.me too."
me-"everyone else.all these other couples get to see each other everyday and don't think anything of it.it isn't fair is it?"
holly-"no it isn't.but a lot of things aren't fair.but this will work out."
me-"yeah.i love you.gosh you really make me feel better sweetie."
holly-"i love you too.and good.that's my job to make you feel better."
me-"i knew you were going to say that."
gosh i know their were tons more but i'm so stuck on rushing my head back with memories that i can't even think straight.yeah.whoa.loving her feels really good.we're working through our rough spots.i really like that idea.my holly is smart.
me-"i don't know why i am getting all emotional right now."
holly-"it's okay honey.when you get like this i just need to make sure i squeeze you tighter."
me-"i'm wishing so much i was in your arms right now."
holly-"yeah.me too."
me-"when i'm in your arms or you're in my arms,everything automatically feels better because all i can think about is how happy i am that we're together."
holly-"i think tonight you should fall asleep in my arms.that way you can be happy."
me-"and i can cuddle up to you?with my head on your shoulder?and you will lean your head down to mine?"
holly-"yup."
me-"you know what i really hate?that we have to be so good at saying goodbye."
holly-"yeaaaaaah.i know.but it will all pay off in the end.you know that."
me-"yeah i do know."
holly-"and we can do this.we are sorting through all the rough spots now.we wont have to do that later.and our relationship is going to keep getting stronger and stronger.and by the end it is going to be so sturdy strong.we wont even break a sweat about anything.it's like oh we got it under control."
me-"yeah honey.i like that idea.it's going to pay off."
holly-"so don't worry."
me-"i just want to make sure you want to do this for as long as it takes.do you?"
holly-"yeah honey."
me-"good.me too.me too."
me-"everyone else.all these other couples get to see each other everyday and don't think anything of it.it isn't fair is it?"
holly-"no it isn't.but a lot of things aren't fair.but this will work out."
me-"yeah.i love you.gosh you really make me feel better sweetie."
holly-"i love you too.and good.that's my job to make you feel better."
me-"i knew you were going to say that."
gosh i know their were tons more but i'm so stuck on rushing my head back with memories that i can't even think straight.yeah.whoa.loving her feels really good.we're working through our rough spots.i really like that idea.my holly is smart.