always the bridesmaid never the bride
classes started today... i didnt really want to go to school, but once i was there it felt like ihad never gone away.
im looking forward to a lot of things this semesterand i hope that everything works out.
i really need to step up to the plate, i mean, i think of myself as a good designer, and ive been told by my teachers that i are, but somehow when the most important time comes and i need to prove that and i fall terribly fucking short. it really pisses me off. i try to pretend like i dont care but i do. i feel like second class crap. if im good at nothing that matters than why even bother? why not just go for fashion merchandising and call it quits?
the only thing cheering me up is this:
after years of wanting, theyre finally mine
i love you
bah
fuckit
im looking forward to a lot of things this semesterand i hope that everything works out.
i really need to step up to the plate, i mean, i think of myself as a good designer, and ive been told by my teachers that i are, but somehow when the most important time comes and i need to prove that and i fall terribly fucking short. it really pisses me off. i try to pretend like i dont care but i do. i feel like second class crap. if im good at nothing that matters than why even bother? why not just go for fashion merchandising and call it quits?
the only thing cheering me up is this:
after years of wanting, theyre finally mine
i love you
bah
fuckit