Aug 29, 2005 21:52
plateau
zero gradient
inertia
indolence
lassitude
"exciting" isn't as exciting as it was before; "extreme" seems to mean a long road to run at this moment; "job well done" now is just part and parcel of work; "elated" seems too far-fetched a description; "adrenaline" is a juice freshly squeezed from rocks.
i'm in cruising mode. most things are coming to a halt. deadly quiet and silently deafening. a piece of good news becomes a "blah" which flashes across my eyes. an answer from me ranges from "okay" to "alright" and at best, extends to "sure".
it's because a certain event has come to a stand-still - the next chapter of my career.
waiting. waiting for an answer so as to allow me to either move or remain. so here i am - accelerating at zero speed yet suspended in midair.
i'm cruising along... cruising at zero speed... living in contradiction.