tigermilkfed
thank you infinitely for all your words of kindness. i'm afraid i haven't been able to do the same for anyone in the past few weeks; i'd grown into a strange recluse creature. i've been able to be very social and functional at school, or so i thought: my grades in physics and math went down so dramatically, in a way that makes me think of an avalanche. part fatigue and/or laziness and part relapse, maybe; i couldn't concentrate at all. i couldn't finish a book, the only exceptions being a guide book: Norvège & Le pou déguisé en sckwrkx, which is a children's book. for the first time in my life i have a growing desire to travel, which means i'm at ease where i stand, i think. but then: i haven't brought a real friend home in two years. /maybe it was stress, maybe it was hormones, maybe it was too many maybes, most probably not, as i knew i'd get into college and all and all, maybe it was knowing that my future was certain and that i didn't like it at all. for a while i was f-f-frozen, but i'm warming up at last. i have a lot of things to look forward to, entre autres: sugar shack habillée en crapouillou-carreautée, solde de livre des amis de la bibliothèque habillée en crapouillou avec les copines, eisley ENFIN SEIGNEUR DIEU!, la journée de jason lardon, le bazar, death cab if i can find someone, maybe free tickets to radiohead, plein plein plein. this year is such a contrast to last year. i don't feel so alone anymore. i have friends who are cool and part-time nerds ahahaha. vraiment parfait. now, if only i could find a decent dress to wear this spring.
ps. happy new year
pps. what did your prom dress look like? what did you do after prom?