Writer's Block: Pecking Order
I am the only child.
I think being an only child makes me take a lot of things for granted because my parents buy me quite a lot of things, and it used to make me feel that I deserve what I get. And I once foolishly said to my mother, "Do you know how hard my life is?" after getting angry at my parents' teasing.
However, as I grew up, and because of the influence from both church and my cousin (who brought me to church), I came to realise what dire situation I was in.
My parents were aging faster than I can tell them "I love you" and I was growing faster than I can stop saying "I hate you!".
Also, me being a timid person by nature, I became scared of the future. Life became bleak for me and I start to feel that I am all alone (besides having God with me) in the crafting my life journey. Everybody may help me in some significant way or another, but how my life would turn out solely depends on me.
But one obstacle stands in my way: I am lazy.
And the scriptures say, "If ye are prepared, ye shall not fear".
But if you are not even dilligent to start preparing early in the first place, how can you become prepared?
I am still facing this obstacle.
And many a times, it makes me think, what would I do if a fire broke out in my house? Would I be prepared with my 72-hour kit to run for safety? Or would I be the one screaming cos' I am totally not prepared and I'm seeing all my things getting burned up?
And I feel grateful for answering this question cos' it reminds me of my weakness, and it makes me want to just go and be dilligent.
To me, being dilligent means doing the things which I need to do and have to do, and only leaving the things that I want to do last because usually the things that I want to do are the things that don't matter so much, such as reading fashion magazines.
Okie dokes, later!
I think being an only child makes me take a lot of things for granted because my parents buy me quite a lot of things, and it used to make me feel that I deserve what I get. And I once foolishly said to my mother, "Do you know how hard my life is?" after getting angry at my parents' teasing.
However, as I grew up, and because of the influence from both church and my cousin (who brought me to church), I came to realise what dire situation I was in.
My parents were aging faster than I can tell them "I love you" and I was growing faster than I can stop saying "I hate you!".
Also, me being a timid person by nature, I became scared of the future. Life became bleak for me and I start to feel that I am all alone (besides having God with me) in the crafting my life journey. Everybody may help me in some significant way or another, but how my life would turn out solely depends on me.
But one obstacle stands in my way: I am lazy.
And the scriptures say, "If ye are prepared, ye shall not fear".
But if you are not even dilligent to start preparing early in the first place, how can you become prepared?
I am still facing this obstacle.
And many a times, it makes me think, what would I do if a fire broke out in my house? Would I be prepared with my 72-hour kit to run for safety? Or would I be the one screaming cos' I am totally not prepared and I'm seeing all my things getting burned up?
And I feel grateful for answering this question cos' it reminds me of my weakness, and it makes me want to just go and be dilligent.
To me, being dilligent means doing the things which I need to do and have to do, and only leaving the things that I want to do last because usually the things that I want to do are the things that don't matter so much, such as reading fashion magazines.
Okie dokes, later!