Get over it.
I have the only-child complex.
I went for my Church YW movie night just now. And I found out that some of them (YM, Christy and etc) went for a haircut together. I also noticed the same style of scarfs they had on.
Thing is, I know that I am not of the others' age, and since I am not in the others' range of age, I maybe don't mix that well with them cos they'll prefer to be with people of their age or slightly younger.
But I still feel a slight tinge of jealousy when they go out without asking me out.
Of course, I wasn't ever that close to them in the first place. So I shouldn't have the expectation that they'll ask me out just because I think that I'm actually really close enough to them for me to go out with them for shopping and such. That's why I could understand what Sis Judy meant when she said that YS wants to be part of the group because at home she doesn't have the opportunity to be like this.
Well, I feel that Bishop Neo was really right when he said to mix around with the RS sisters cos' I can't always stay a young women. There's a time when I have to move on.
Furthermore, as much as I try to catch up to the other YW's trends like K-Pop, boybands and etc, sometimes there are some things that I cannot connect with them. Even though it's only by a mere 2 to 3 years. I'm not saying the effort of doing this is futile cos' it does help me to be in tune with what they discuss and pick up some fangirling lingo (and at the same time be assured that there are tonnes of people like me who swoon over pretty and talented boys ;p), but then there are some things that, when I cannot seem to 'get into', I can only listen and observe.
You can may call this the adult mentality, but I really do feel this way now after today's incident.
I'll still be good friends with them you know. Because I really love them very much. They'll always be a part of the good memories in my life and I am thankful to them for including me in.
"Good friends. Everyone needs good friends... The kind of friends who never leave you crying... They're always trying to be good friends." -- Good Friends from For the Strength of Youth soundtrack by Janice Kapp Perry.
So yeah, I think putting this down in words makes me feel better.
As I was on my way home, I was overcame by the sadness in me, but I tried to count my blessings, how God blessed me with so much, with a loving family, with other really good friends who love me as much, with a wonderful life and a hopeful future.
I count the blessing that at least I am not alone in this world. At least I am surrounded with people who care for me and acknowledge my existence.
And it was just at the right time when Rachel called me to chat. I really thank Lord God for this blessing cos' He really knows what I need. And He answered my need with a phone call from a dear friend since secondary school.
So yup. Good night (:
I went for my Church YW movie night just now. And I found out that some of them (YM, Christy and etc) went for a haircut together. I also noticed the same style of scarfs they had on.
Thing is, I know that I am not of the others' age, and since I am not in the others' range of age, I maybe don't mix that well with them cos they'll prefer to be with people of their age or slightly younger.
But I still feel a slight tinge of jealousy when they go out without asking me out.
Of course, I wasn't ever that close to them in the first place. So I shouldn't have the expectation that they'll ask me out just because I think that I'm actually really close enough to them for me to go out with them for shopping and such. That's why I could understand what Sis Judy meant when she said that YS wants to be part of the group because at home she doesn't have the opportunity to be like this.
Well, I feel that Bishop Neo was really right when he said to mix around with the RS sisters cos' I can't always stay a young women. There's a time when I have to move on.
Furthermore, as much as I try to catch up to the other YW's trends like K-Pop, boybands and etc, sometimes there are some things that I cannot connect with them. Even though it's only by a mere 2 to 3 years. I'm not saying the effort of doing this is futile cos' it does help me to be in tune with what they discuss and pick up some fangirling lingo (and at the same time be assured that there are tonnes of people like me who swoon over pretty and talented boys ;p), but then there are some things that, when I cannot seem to 'get into', I can only listen and observe.
You can may call this the adult mentality, but I really do feel this way now after today's incident.
I'll still be good friends with them you know. Because I really love them very much. They'll always be a part of the good memories in my life and I am thankful to them for including me in.
"Good friends. Everyone needs good friends... The kind of friends who never leave you crying... They're always trying to be good friends." -- Good Friends from For the Strength of Youth soundtrack by Janice Kapp Perry.
So yeah, I think putting this down in words makes me feel better.
As I was on my way home, I was overcame by the sadness in me, but I tried to count my blessings, how God blessed me with so much, with a loving family, with other really good friends who love me as much, with a wonderful life and a hopeful future.
I count the blessing that at least I am not alone in this world. At least I am surrounded with people who care for me and acknowledge my existence.
And it was just at the right time when Rachel called me to chat. I really thank Lord God for this blessing cos' He really knows what I need. And He answered my need with a phone call from a dear friend since secondary school.
So yup. Good night (: