Rambles.
My knee hurts. It's like in the haunted house, when I'd crawl all over the floor and I got giant bruises over my legs. Only, now I'm setting up lights for our school production of the Mousetrap. I kept banging my knees on this giant-ass ladder. It hurts to walk.
Also, I slammed by back into some piping doing the same thing. It hurt all day. But it's finally feeling better.
Aside from that physical pain... There's a lot going on right now. And I mean a lot. I mean, it's natural for me to feel constantly tired, but not like this. Blah. Also, it seems everyone I talked to at school had nightmares last night, and could hardly sleep. Mine was about vampires... and the one before that about heads being squished like grapes. I think. I haven't have a nightmare since the school year started. It felt rather nostalgic, in an abysmal way.
Today was busy. As yesterday was, as tomorrow will be. Next week is less busy, but I do have some more volunteer work on Monday. 3:30-5, same times as my internship. Which is, by the way, going rather well. Apparently counties send in magazines and stuff, which I was a judge of today. That was kind of fun. Also, I enter events into their online calender. That's more secretarial work, however. I do hate answering the phone. It's always so awkward. But I liked judging those magazines. Wilsonville's was so incredibly awful. XD
I'm feeling better than yesterday. I'm just in a generally better mood, I suppose. Which is good. But I'm also really tired, which is bad.
Randomly, did any of you know I'm scared of ladders? Not the height or anything. I'm just scared I'll fall off one and die, because they're so wobbly and without any support system.
I need to journal more, because my mind is all over the place. Also, this is accumulating between AIM and RPs, so it's more than a bit scattered. But, a point I've been wanting to make is that I'm worried for Sean. He's in Iraq right now you see, and doesn't make much contact with us. We haven't gotten any calls or messages from him, at least for a month. I know he's not dead, I was never worried about that.
What I'm concerned about is that he's changed. It's a separate world or universe or whatever over there. The stress is different, the people... everything. So, I wouldn't be surprised if he'd changed. I'm just worried about what, exactly, has changed. He's still my brother! I don't want him coming back and being a strange.
It scares me. So very, very much. And I think that's were a lot of my psychological stress is coming from. Because I just can't stop eating up about him...
...Oh. Also, I'm thinking about meditating before sleep every night. I learned how in class today, which is the theory I have for why I'm in such a good mood. C:
Also, I slammed by back into some piping doing the same thing. It hurt all day. But it's finally feeling better.
Aside from that physical pain... There's a lot going on right now. And I mean a lot. I mean, it's natural for me to feel constantly tired, but not like this. Blah. Also, it seems everyone I talked to at school had nightmares last night, and could hardly sleep. Mine was about vampires... and the one before that about heads being squished like grapes. I think. I haven't have a nightmare since the school year started. It felt rather nostalgic, in an abysmal way.
Today was busy. As yesterday was, as tomorrow will be. Next week is less busy, but I do have some more volunteer work on Monday. 3:30-5, same times as my internship. Which is, by the way, going rather well. Apparently counties send in magazines and stuff, which I was a judge of today. That was kind of fun. Also, I enter events into their online calender. That's more secretarial work, however. I do hate answering the phone. It's always so awkward. But I liked judging those magazines. Wilsonville's was so incredibly awful. XD
I'm feeling better than yesterday. I'm just in a generally better mood, I suppose. Which is good. But I'm also really tired, which is bad.
Randomly, did any of you know I'm scared of ladders? Not the height or anything. I'm just scared I'll fall off one and die, because they're so wobbly and without any support system.
I need to journal more, because my mind is all over the place. Also, this is accumulating between AIM and RPs, so it's more than a bit scattered. But, a point I've been wanting to make is that I'm worried for Sean. He's in Iraq right now you see, and doesn't make much contact with us. We haven't gotten any calls or messages from him, at least for a month. I know he's not dead, I was never worried about that.
What I'm concerned about is that he's changed. It's a separate world or universe or whatever over there. The stress is different, the people... everything. So, I wouldn't be surprised if he'd changed. I'm just worried about what, exactly, has changed. He's still my brother! I don't want him coming back and being a strange.
It scares me. So very, very much. And I think that's were a lot of my psychological stress is coming from. Because I just can't stop eating up about him...
...Oh. Also, I'm thinking about meditating before sleep every night. I learned how in class today, which is the theory I have for why I'm in such a good mood. C: