wtf
i dont know if im good with the relationship thing. i dont think im ready. im just selfish and always want more.
i hate not being able to control feelings. i used to not feel at all. i think i just have to try to cut some things out of my life for a while... again. and by things i mean people.
and about last nite, i had fun. lots of fun actually. i liked being random, sleep-deprived, partying... but i did NOT like my car breaking down, being stranded in the middle of nowhere in fallbrook at josh's mom's, fearing for my life in drunk josh's speeding car ride, waiting for a tow truck to take me back home to tustin, and having to pay for a new clutch while finding a ride to work and school this week.
so lots of fun. but lots more blah. high ups, low downs. sounds familiar. not talking bout that anymore tho. blah.
back to equilibrium...
i hate not being able to control feelings. i used to not feel at all. i think i just have to try to cut some things out of my life for a while... again. and by things i mean people.
and about last nite, i had fun. lots of fun actually. i liked being random, sleep-deprived, partying... but i did NOT like my car breaking down, being stranded in the middle of nowhere in fallbrook at josh's mom's, fearing for my life in drunk josh's speeding car ride, waiting for a tow truck to take me back home to tustin, and having to pay for a new clutch while finding a ride to work and school this week.
so lots of fun. but lots more blah. high ups, low downs. sounds familiar. not talking bout that anymore tho. blah.
back to equilibrium...