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i feel ill at the moment.
my stomach is aching, my eyes are heavy and my stress level is incredibly too high.
i would like to make mention of last weekend..
carrie and rob got married, and the wedding was short but sweet.
the reception was fun, i honestly had a good time.
it was their day, and i am very happy for them.
that entire day and night made me realize something...
i miss my olf friends with all my heart.
we had really good times, and i wish we still could.
i know that as time passes things inevitably come unglued..
but.. this was a group of friends that i never pictured myself without.
we have all grown..
both in age and well as within ourselves.
you may even say we have all become a vague memory of what we once were.
most friendships die for one reason or another.
god knows i have made some terrible mistakes and done some stupid things in the past.
i wouldnt say i would take it all back..
i would just like to think that i wouldnt have hurt the people that i have hurt.
more than anything i wish a part of me could still be involved in these old friends lives.
but you know when you have been out of touch for a while..
things appear as if they could never go back to the way they were.
i have a ceramic vessel in my livingroom that was made by an old friend..
i couldnt picture my life without him at one point in time.
he was a damned good friend too.
a little bitch, or a pain in the ass at times.
but... when you needed him, he was always there.
everyday i see that thing and i think about him.
honestly.. everyday.
gary, i will keep that vessel until the end of time.
there are things that i never even realized i miss.
people.
over and out.
s
my stomach is aching, my eyes are heavy and my stress level is incredibly too high.
i would like to make mention of last weekend..
carrie and rob got married, and the wedding was short but sweet.
the reception was fun, i honestly had a good time.
it was their day, and i am very happy for them.
that entire day and night made me realize something...
i miss my olf friends with all my heart.
we had really good times, and i wish we still could.
i know that as time passes things inevitably come unglued..
but.. this was a group of friends that i never pictured myself without.
we have all grown..
both in age and well as within ourselves.
you may even say we have all become a vague memory of what we once were.
most friendships die for one reason or another.
god knows i have made some terrible mistakes and done some stupid things in the past.
i wouldnt say i would take it all back..
i would just like to think that i wouldnt have hurt the people that i have hurt.
more than anything i wish a part of me could still be involved in these old friends lives.
but you know when you have been out of touch for a while..
things appear as if they could never go back to the way they were.
i have a ceramic vessel in my livingroom that was made by an old friend..
i couldnt picture my life without him at one point in time.
he was a damned good friend too.
a little bitch, or a pain in the ass at times.
but... when you needed him, he was always there.
everyday i see that thing and i think about him.
honestly.. everyday.
gary, i will keep that vessel until the end of time.
there are things that i never even realized i miss.
people.
over and out.
s