Inferiority complex?
What makes him so much better?
What made him so much more special?
Why was he allowed priviliges that I, to this day, am still not allowed?
He could keep you out until 10 and later and even take you to Kingsport; I can't keep you out past dark?
What is it?
Is it becuase his life is handed to him on a silver-platter; because daddy gives him his every little whim, thus feeding his ego even more?
I'm sorry that I have to start from scratch. I'm sorry that my parents don't have money. I'm sorry my parents didn't go to college. I'm sorry that all the money that might come my way instead goes into paying to keep my family nourished, to put my nieces through school, to keep the lights on. I was supposed to be the youngest, I was supposed to be the spoiled one, I was supposed to be the one who gets his way. Why is it that all my brothers got to enjoy their last few years of teenagehood? Why is it that I'm the only one that can't go out with his friends to eat? To go on vacation? To have a fucking car?
I'm sorry that I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. But you were in my position once. You should empathize with me, not judge me and push me away just becuase you want to look like a good mom in front of your new-found fiance.
I've never been more angry at someone for being so hypocritical. I looked up to you, I respected you, I fucking loved you like my own; do you not realize this? You were one of few people in this world that I could really call a hero. You had gone through it all! You went through a terrible hardship, relationship, and break-up. You raised your daughter while working any job you could; all this while putting yourself through college! Now you have the good life, now you have what you didn't, now you are giving your daughter what you couldn't have; yet you are pushing me away for going through the exact same hardship that you went through?
We had our arguments, we had our fights, we had our hardships; but I treated her like an angel and you know it. I may not have been the best boyfriend, but I made her happy.
I made her happy.
What made him so much more special?
Why was he allowed priviliges that I, to this day, am still not allowed?
He could keep you out until 10 and later and even take you to Kingsport; I can't keep you out past dark?
What is it?
Is it becuase his life is handed to him on a silver-platter; because daddy gives him his every little whim, thus feeding his ego even more?
I'm sorry that I have to start from scratch. I'm sorry that my parents don't have money. I'm sorry my parents didn't go to college. I'm sorry that all the money that might come my way instead goes into paying to keep my family nourished, to put my nieces through school, to keep the lights on. I was supposed to be the youngest, I was supposed to be the spoiled one, I was supposed to be the one who gets his way. Why is it that all my brothers got to enjoy their last few years of teenagehood? Why is it that I'm the only one that can't go out with his friends to eat? To go on vacation? To have a fucking car?
I'm sorry that I wasn't born with a silver spoon in my mouth. But you were in my position once. You should empathize with me, not judge me and push me away just becuase you want to look like a good mom in front of your new-found fiance.
I've never been more angry at someone for being so hypocritical. I looked up to you, I respected you, I fucking loved you like my own; do you not realize this? You were one of few people in this world that I could really call a hero. You had gone through it all! You went through a terrible hardship, relationship, and break-up. You raised your daughter while working any job you could; all this while putting yourself through college! Now you have the good life, now you have what you didn't, now you are giving your daughter what you couldn't have; yet you are pushing me away for going through the exact same hardship that you went through?
We had our arguments, we had our fights, we had our hardships; but I treated her like an angel and you know it. I may not have been the best boyfriend, but I made her happy.
I made her happy.