Rhythm breaks down.....
What happens when the rhythm breaks down and all the complex sounds emerge? The rhythm of my life has been broken tremendously in the past month and a half. So, I will sit back and let all the complex sounds take over. We have both complexity in the good and the bad sense. Let's begin with the bad and take a wild guess what that is......and if you've been reading you know full well what it is. My parents. My family and I went to a wedding on Saturday morning and all seemed well. If you weren't me, you wouldn't even notice that my father's plans to move out are still in full effect. They sat together, ate together, toasted each other during the speeches, and even danced together. However, when they sat together, little to no words were exchanged and they never touched. Little things that are left unseen to the untrained eye. All in all, things were good until my father and I went to pick up my car from the shop later on that day. We dropped Mom off at the house and it was just myself and dad in the car. I casually asked how things were and dad began to rip into my mother and how she thinks everything is just fine. Dad, however, sees things in a different light and is desperately looking for a temporary place. I let him talk for a little while and then we arrived at the car place where I exited the car quickly to avoid an awkward silence after he was finished. Close call.
Luckily, for me especially, with the bad does come the good. My good has come in the form of Cassie Brauer. She has worn many hats to me: Friend, therapist, work-out buddy, dinner date, practice confidante, and creator of hilarious quotes. Now, she has taken on a new hat: Girlfriend. The ice was broken on Friday evening with the fateful words "We should change our facebook profiles" The reason I am using humor about her is that she brings humor and laughter into my life. Whether it's talking about people at a restaurant or discussing religion in Applebee's, we always find new ways to laugh at both ourselves and others.
On a more serious note, Cassie also "gets" me. I guess those cliched hollywood stories do have some truth. You find someone who really gets why you do things and the two of you become inseparable. From our conversations, Cassie has been places that I am going through and has had the same feelings that I am having now about life and other subjects. She has a genuine desire to take care of me and love me as I am and not of who I once was. We have been best friends for several months before now and still she chooses to stand by my side. It is going to take me a long time to understand why she's doing this, but she has agreed to help me try. I don't believe she truly knows how much I care about her and how badly I want this to work.
It really all began a couple of weeks ago when I was in the fourth floor of the library and I got a phone call. It was Cassie who next to tears because of a rejection from a person she thought to be an admirer. It, of course, broke my heart to see the girl in pain, but I had gotten to a point emotionally to where I was beginng to move and realize that she will probably not have feelings for me. I realized this because she kept talking about how she wanted to meet a guy who wouldn't judge her and I just want to shout through the phone that I was that guy. However, I refrained, but the more she spoke, the more and more I wanted to say something to her. Our conversation lasted for about a half and hour and we both needed to go so we began our good-nights. I ended with the words "I love you" because it was what I felt. She responded with the same, but she seemed a little off-guard. Thus began, a series of events where Cassie and I just seemed to get closer and closer every day. Finally, it was the night after my recital and everyone was outside smoking and drinking and I had this little curled up in my arms and she made the first move and asked if we could have a relationship. I think my reaction is fairly obvious due to the nature of this update. I even had a chance to show off Cassie at an engagement party hosted by the Tripp family of Richmond. I was wearing a suit that I had been wearing all day at that point and she was dressed in beautiful new clothes, flawless make-up, and shoes that made her feet hurt so bad, but she wore them anyway for me. I even had the father of the groom come up to me and say "Congratulations" When I asked him what for, he simply looked at Cassie and gave me that smile. All I could say was, "I know"
Luckily, for me especially, with the bad does come the good. My good has come in the form of Cassie Brauer. She has worn many hats to me: Friend, therapist, work-out buddy, dinner date, practice confidante, and creator of hilarious quotes. Now, she has taken on a new hat: Girlfriend. The ice was broken on Friday evening with the fateful words "We should change our facebook profiles" The reason I am using humor about her is that she brings humor and laughter into my life. Whether it's talking about people at a restaurant or discussing religion in Applebee's, we always find new ways to laugh at both ourselves and others.
On a more serious note, Cassie also "gets" me. I guess those cliched hollywood stories do have some truth. You find someone who really gets why you do things and the two of you become inseparable. From our conversations, Cassie has been places that I am going through and has had the same feelings that I am having now about life and other subjects. She has a genuine desire to take care of me and love me as I am and not of who I once was. We have been best friends for several months before now and still she chooses to stand by my side. It is going to take me a long time to understand why she's doing this, but she has agreed to help me try. I don't believe she truly knows how much I care about her and how badly I want this to work.
It really all began a couple of weeks ago when I was in the fourth floor of the library and I got a phone call. It was Cassie who next to tears because of a rejection from a person she thought to be an admirer. It, of course, broke my heart to see the girl in pain, but I had gotten to a point emotionally to where I was beginng to move and realize that she will probably not have feelings for me. I realized this because she kept talking about how she wanted to meet a guy who wouldn't judge her and I just want to shout through the phone that I was that guy. However, I refrained, but the more she spoke, the more and more I wanted to say something to her. Our conversation lasted for about a half and hour and we both needed to go so we began our good-nights. I ended with the words "I love you" because it was what I felt. She responded with the same, but she seemed a little off-guard. Thus began, a series of events where Cassie and I just seemed to get closer and closer every day. Finally, it was the night after my recital and everyone was outside smoking and drinking and I had this little curled up in my arms and she made the first move and asked if we could have a relationship. I think my reaction is fairly obvious due to the nature of this update. I even had a chance to show off Cassie at an engagement party hosted by the Tripp family of Richmond. I was wearing a suit that I had been wearing all day at that point and she was dressed in beautiful new clothes, flawless make-up, and shoes that made her feet hurt so bad, but she wore them anyway for me. I even had the father of the groom come up to me and say "Congratulations" When I asked him what for, he simply looked at Cassie and gave me that smile. All I could say was, "I know"