Relax?
I have forgotten how to relax. With the stuff with Sharon... and the stuff with David.. and work getting busier and busier and more new stuff being added. My anxiety levels are thru the roof. Its like I am always walking on eggshells in my house. I never can relax and can just let myself be. I am supposed to go on a cruise 2 weeks from today. I should be looking forward to it and getting ready... but nope. I'm stressing about what is going to happen with Sharon when I am gone. Where is she going to go. With things as scetchy as they are with her dad... and how things went with my mom last year...
I went and saw a therapist who said I need to go fill the sleeping pills and try to get sleep. Sharons therapist said to see how the weekend goes with her dad. When the phone rang last night to tell me about them fighting again I felt my heart pounding so much I seriously thought it was going to explode out of my boob.
And its all the little stuff that crept in... the car (yeah.. it died.. i got a new one that I now have to pay for) the sump pump died and flooded our basement which now our whole house stinks as its trying to dry out... our couch is broken.. the cable isnt working in the basement...
Im exhausted.
Bob keeps saying to look at all the good stuff.. and I usually do. Im usually there.. but I just cant right now. I just. cant.
Ill get there. Now I need to go shower. I have laundry to do and a house to clean.. yay.
I went and saw a therapist who said I need to go fill the sleeping pills and try to get sleep. Sharons therapist said to see how the weekend goes with her dad. When the phone rang last night to tell me about them fighting again I felt my heart pounding so much I seriously thought it was going to explode out of my boob.
And its all the little stuff that crept in... the car (yeah.. it died.. i got a new one that I now have to pay for) the sump pump died and flooded our basement which now our whole house stinks as its trying to dry out... our couch is broken.. the cable isnt working in the basement...
Im exhausted.
Bob keeps saying to look at all the good stuff.. and I usually do. Im usually there.. but I just cant right now. I just. cant.
Ill get there. Now I need to go shower. I have laundry to do and a house to clean.. yay.