quack
Classes start tommorrow.
I am a big fan of the first day of classes.
I get excited over reading a syllabus, seeing friends I haven't seen since December.
I had a rough weekend because of my own mind. It is so not cool when you can't find solace in your own thoughts. When you're afraid of your own thoughts. Because you're constantly obsessing over something terrifying, lifethreatening, or just incredibly sad. It scares me that I can't escape my own paranoia. I guess after I called my doctor three times this weekend freaking out I am not surprised she repeated the phrase "It's nothing. I've never even heard of someone your age having that problem. It's nothing" and then urged me to make an appointment ASAP so I can get on medication. I don't like how I can spend days twitching and obsessing and feeling weak, unable to escape my own anxiety.
I crave distraction.
I am a big fan of the first day of classes.
I get excited over reading a syllabus, seeing friends I haven't seen since December.
I had a rough weekend because of my own mind. It is so not cool when you can't find solace in your own thoughts. When you're afraid of your own thoughts. Because you're constantly obsessing over something terrifying, lifethreatening, or just incredibly sad. It scares me that I can't escape my own paranoia. I guess after I called my doctor three times this weekend freaking out I am not surprised she repeated the phrase "It's nothing. I've never even heard of someone your age having that problem. It's nothing" and then urged me to make an appointment ASAP so I can get on medication. I don't like how I can spend days twitching and obsessing and feeling weak, unable to escape my own anxiety.
I crave distraction.