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I'm home.
There is no work.
Those of you who had jobs to come home to are lucky. Me and many others cannot find work. It sucks. I planned to buy a car this summer, guess not!
Another year of having to bum rides. I hate it.
Totally dependent on the whims of others. Gerard complaining about "toting me around" all the time. Well, his grandmother bought him a car, there isn't anyone to buy me one!:(
It's nice to actually take a vacation, because I really need it. I deserve it after a school year during which I had permanent under eye circles, and everything besides me came first.
Still, I hate the idea of turning 20 years old in August, and not being able to run out and get a coffee by myself. At least at school the coffee place is within walking distance.
I vaguely feel like a failure for not having summer work. But I guess I know it is stupid to feel that way. I got all A's at school, got inducted into the International English Honors Society. I got an award for being the best CA in my building. Next year, I am practically going to school for free, and I have an apartment. I'm an ACA, and a Writing Center Consultant. That's two hard to get, awesome jobs. I don't get why I feel like such a failure. I need to stop having the need to be productive. I ran myself into the ground this past school year, and I need to take to take it easy. I guess this is the world's way of making me take a break?
I just wish I could convince myself that it's okay to take some time off. It's probably normal. I mean, some people take semesters off, or don't go to college right off, etc. I've just plowed straight through, and it's been hard. I need to make my peace with relaxing.
There is no work.
Those of you who had jobs to come home to are lucky. Me and many others cannot find work. It sucks. I planned to buy a car this summer, guess not!
Another year of having to bum rides. I hate it.
Totally dependent on the whims of others. Gerard complaining about "toting me around" all the time. Well, his grandmother bought him a car, there isn't anyone to buy me one!:(
It's nice to actually take a vacation, because I really need it. I deserve it after a school year during which I had permanent under eye circles, and everything besides me came first.
Still, I hate the idea of turning 20 years old in August, and not being able to run out and get a coffee by myself. At least at school the coffee place is within walking distance.
I vaguely feel like a failure for not having summer work. But I guess I know it is stupid to feel that way. I got all A's at school, got inducted into the International English Honors Society. I got an award for being the best CA in my building. Next year, I am practically going to school for free, and I have an apartment. I'm an ACA, and a Writing Center Consultant. That's two hard to get, awesome jobs. I don't get why I feel like such a failure. I need to stop having the need to be productive. I ran myself into the ground this past school year, and I need to take to take it easy. I guess this is the world's way of making me take a break?
I just wish I could convince myself that it's okay to take some time off. It's probably normal. I mean, some people take semesters off, or don't go to college right off, etc. I've just plowed straight through, and it's been hard. I need to make my peace with relaxing.