Theres so much to worry about...

[conservativegrl]

So inside im basically all over the place. Last night I was up till 1:00 AM doing my english final, because I kinda forgot about it and it took a lot longer then I thought it would. I figured it would take an hour...but then I start caring about it and im up for hours making it as amazing as I could. haha Im such a messss. And then last night I was laying in my bed working on some of the english crap and like behind my eye was hurting and its been hurting ever since. It hurts when I blink or squint my eye and im getting nervous about it. Idk if i pulled something in it somehow or what. But I hope it just goes away. Then my nana last night had something go weird with her heart so my mom is all scared that something is going to happen to her where shes gonna need to go to the hosipital and then someone is gonna have to take care of my papa. So im hoping my nana is ok. It makes me so sad because life is unfair like that, all you can do is watch the people you love slowly break down and you know in the back of your mind they are going to pass away one day. But then again who really knows how long anyone is going to live for right? haha i know im writing really happy things! But anyway it also makes me sad because once my grandparents and great uncles and aunts on my mom side passes away, holidays are not going to be the same at all. My dads side of the family doesnt really like us all that much, and his side are all fighting about his parents and i feel bad for my grandpa and grandma. My grandma hasnt been the same for years now, she has althemiers (did i spell that right?) and anyway shes not the same person that she was and i miss her sometimes. And shes getting to the point where I dont know if she is going to be able to take care of herself even with my grandpa there to help her. My grandpa loves her so much still though, its so cute. I can see what happen in the notebook basically happen between my dads parents. im not even kidding.

Idk...thats about it i guess....im sick of writing sad crap! lol

But tomorrow I have off all day and Alex and michelle and I are going out for breakfast so Im excited about that :)

OH YEAH...during advisement today a kid from Arcadia got arrested! HAHAHHA we had to have lock down in some of the hallways because of it...thats some entertainment if you ask me! hahaha

****I dont wanna hurt anymore, I just wanna spoon! haha good times in advisement!***