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just when I thought I had put it all behind me forever, it comes at me again- indirectly, yes, and through the kindest person ever, but still.
what's stupid is that it's dully aching again now. can't someone just hit me with a tranquilizer dart- or something to put me to sleep before it starts bleeding afresh? yet I can take this as an opportunity to really, really end it. or it might start all over again. I definitely grew from it, but I don't know if I ever want to repeat the experience, honestly.
ow.