ramble..
everything runs through my head. everything. i want it to go back to the way things were, even if i was being used, i was still wanted right? i miss kissing, and holding, and laughing at stupid things. i miss just being wanted. i miss never sleeping cause we'd always be on the phone.
im a jealous person. and things that other people do, make me want to do them more, and get what they have or had. and i need to stop.
right now.
im declaring an oath to try and stop being jealous.
i make myself want him more, but in reality, i look at him.. and im like what the fuck, look what you did to me. im a disgusting person. i need to realize that i am a good person and deserve someone who will want me for me and not just for sex. i need to wait, and watch that come.
im making myself really upset right now. i kinda want to cry, like when you get that pressure on your nose, and then you start bawling. its happening right now.
i just want someone.
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<3katie.
im a jealous person. and things that other people do, make me want to do them more, and get what they have or had. and i need to stop.
right now.
im declaring an oath to try and stop being jealous.
i make myself want him more, but in reality, i look at him.. and im like what the fuck, look what you did to me. im a disgusting person. i need to realize that i am a good person and deserve someone who will want me for me and not just for sex. i need to wait, and watch that come.
im making myself really upset right now. i kinda want to cry, like when you get that pressure on your nose, and then you start bawling. its happening right now.
i just want someone.
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<3katie.