im a pussy...

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im just a coward...a lowly man who cant even face the ones he cares for the most because he is ashamed of his own self...

thats all i am , im not sure why some of you worry about me , and also care for me at the same time...

im such a coward...

im so weak , and ashamed...

i cant even face anyone , i dont know how im going to deal with my problems im faceing , im too stubborn to ask for help...

im too weak to fix it myself...

It'll be nothing but pride that kills me....

be it foolish pride or blaitent stubbornness....

i apologize...to everyone...everyone that im hurting...i just need one more day after tonight...and if i havent found what im looking for by then...i will face you all and all the slings and arrows you have to offer , and i will take my lashings without wincing...

i just want you all to know i dont mean to hurt you...im just a coward...but im going to face my problems....

i will become strong , even if i must toss aside my pride and use a crutch....

im...so...sorry...

especially to one i have hurt the most...you will have your baby back soon...

i just need time , you will understand hopefully...