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ok so, today was friday and school was kinda sucky. iwas like zoneing out because i was so tired. my mom said that i would have to walk to school in the morning because she had a meeting or she would drive me in. and because i hate being cold i went with the ride to school. even though i came to find out EARLY in the morning that i was going to arrive at school at 6.30am. nice rite?..yeah. so, i was wearing my ALEXISONFIRE shirt and hoodie and i looked HOTT. lol jk. the show was so awesome. i crowd surfed and me lis and ayr got up in teh FRONT because we were the first ones there. it was so cool. i loved it. ayr tickled this kid mikes cock. it was funny seeing him like wince lol. he was like GUYS ARENT USED TO BEING TOUCH DOWN THERE..im like..That sounds like Andie's excuse all the time.hah.and then in school me and ayr got in a fight. i think we have one atleast once every 2 weeks. so its kinda normal i guess. i was like falling asleep on andie in lunch because i was REALLY tired. and then i fell asleep for like a minute in global and my teacher almost had a heartattache. i was like CHILL BITCH UR NOT THAT INTERESTING anyways. then in math 9th period i come to the conclusion that andies mom really does hate me and it made me cry..yea. and i was like crying on the shuttle bus with andie..i couldnt help it. it makes me so mad that that fat bitch beth can ruin my life by telling her fucking mom all these lies. i fucking hate her. i didnt do shit to her. but now i will. fucking whore. and then andies like crying to be all nice and it was so weird because all the other times when i cried around him i turned away because i was embarrassed. but this time i didnt...idk why. i was like crying really bad and looking at him trying to talk. i was like Andie, can u just tell your mom that im not as big of a bitch as Beth makes me sound?..i hope he got that one because after that i was gone. i couldnt talk rite. i was like kjdgjoasfduhguahg..yeah
Then, i came home and went online and talk to everybody. blocked mike.he was being a bitch anyways. then me mom and dad went to Ruby Tuesday which kinda sucked because all the people around me were like couples. my dad had my mom(ick), and like kids my age had like eachother to kiss and hug and to be like I LOVE U AND IM SO HAPPY WE GET TO HANG OUT ALL THE TIME. and im just sitting there like..i wish i had that..that really makes me more depressed then anything. not being able to see the person i love. i only get to see him in school..which really sucks because we cant really talk that much. this whole fucking situation is messed up. and i can understand that hes grounded but now that beth is like MEGHAN SUCKS to andies mom, i bet when hes not grounded he wont be able to see me anyways...GOD I DIDNT MEAN FOR ANY OF THIS STUFF TO HAPPEN. like ever.
andies like, Dont worry Meg. Ill talk to my mom... THATS NOT GOING TO DO SHIT. His mom doesnt give a shit about anything he has to say. its all because i fucking dumped him for that ONE week. and then shit flew. god..idk what to do anymore. And then my moms like DOnt u miss andy? I mean do u care that u never get to see him and i just wanna look at her and get a razorblade and cut myself infront of her and be like DOES THIS LOOK LIKE I CARE?!?!?!?...i care about him more then anything. well, not ayr or lis or caitlin or but like, id kill for that kid. and it doesnt seem like that matters now.♥...i dont think it ever did
Then, i came home and went online and talk to everybody. blocked mike.he was being a bitch anyways. then me mom and dad went to Ruby Tuesday which kinda sucked because all the people around me were like couples. my dad had my mom(ick), and like kids my age had like eachother to kiss and hug and to be like I LOVE U AND IM SO HAPPY WE GET TO HANG OUT ALL THE TIME. and im just sitting there like..i wish i had that..that really makes me more depressed then anything. not being able to see the person i love. i only get to see him in school..which really sucks because we cant really talk that much. this whole fucking situation is messed up. and i can understand that hes grounded but now that beth is like MEGHAN SUCKS to andies mom, i bet when hes not grounded he wont be able to see me anyways...GOD I DIDNT MEAN FOR ANY OF THIS STUFF TO HAPPEN. like ever.
andies like, Dont worry Meg. Ill talk to my mom... THATS NOT GOING TO DO SHIT. His mom doesnt give a shit about anything he has to say. its all because i fucking dumped him for that ONE week. and then shit flew. god..idk what to do anymore. And then my moms like DOnt u miss andy? I mean do u care that u never get to see him and i just wanna look at her and get a razorblade and cut myself infront of her and be like DOES THIS LOOK LIKE I CARE?!?!?!?...i care about him more then anything. well, not ayr or lis or caitlin or but like, id kill for that kid. and it doesnt seem like that matters now.♥...i dont think it ever did