Torture
Since Sunday, it has been non stop torture with the current (can I call him that?) boyfriend in regards to what happened with the ex. He said he saw how I reacted to the old boyfriend. Emotions were high. New boyfriend (now old) couldn't deal with me having feelings for old, old boyfriend. Now new boyfriend needs to be old boyfriend, too. Catch that? Me neither. I am empty. Am I mad? Sad? Glad? No, I am just empty. I was sure I was going to marry this one. It was the first time I've been ready in 10 years. More than 10 years, I think. Ready shmeady. So he moved out today. If I am typing it, I guess I am accepting it. What else can I do?