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i can't escape anywhere anymore. sometimes i would rather be alone than be around people. or perhaps that scenerio only applies to certain individuals; i'm not sure. it is also possible that i'm secretly mean and selfish and don't want anyone in the house. or we could stem from that example and perhaps assume that i'm overly territorial.
whatever.
my point is that i wish i could have the option to run away when people are here. (but it's sad that i feel as though i'm being forced out of my own apartment) 95%+ of the time, i feel annoyed, unincluded, and simply in the way. they're not my little circle of friends. and as much as i can enjoy the company of boys, it gets old. and tiring. i mean, people might complain of me being quiet, but what the hell am i supposed to say when confronted with a conversation pertaining to 1. mischief, 2. sexual innuendos, or 3. girls.
1. boring
2. boring
3. boring (and really, it's not as though i feel threatened easily or anything... right.)
but again, whatever.
it was my choice to leave behind everyone i care about and all my familiar surroundings. i shouldn't expect any special accomadations because of it.
whatever.
my point is that i wish i could have the option to run away when people are here. (but it's sad that i feel as though i'm being forced out of my own apartment) 95%+ of the time, i feel annoyed, unincluded, and simply in the way. they're not my little circle of friends. and as much as i can enjoy the company of boys, it gets old. and tiring. i mean, people might complain of me being quiet, but what the hell am i supposed to say when confronted with a conversation pertaining to 1. mischief, 2. sexual innuendos, or 3. girls.
1. boring
2. boring
3. boring (and really, it's not as though i feel threatened easily or anything... right.)
but again, whatever.
it was my choice to leave behind everyone i care about and all my familiar surroundings. i shouldn't expect any special accomadations because of it.