Tough Phase
The world finds me in a strange place. Well, actually, the place is the same as ever, it’s my placement in the world’s hierarchy and within my own inner space that has changed.
My job situation is bizarre to say the least. A little under two weeks ago I found out my salary was being cut by 25%. That cut went into effect today, by the way. I asked my company’s owner to fire me so that I could collect unemployment until I start at his new company in what is supposed to be but a handful of weeks. The owner asked me to stay on at my current company for just a little longer. Following that conversation, my boss told me that he would be suspending all of my up and coming projects. I am to focus on writing content for our newsletters and wait for assignments for a website overhaul that will probably not come during the remainder of my tenure here. I am left with decidedly little to work on at the office.
Just before I got the news about my job situation, I discovered that my blood pressure was dangerously high. Do to this, I have not done the following in the last 13 days:
-Smoked so much as a puff of a cigarette
-Drank a beer or imbibed any alcohol whatsoever
-Had any caffeine (That I know of. That shit is everywhere)
-Eaten more than 100% of the governments RDA for sodium per day (so much harder than you think)
-Eaten more than about 1,500 calories per day (usually closer to 1,400)
-Gone a day without an intense workout (stationary biking or roller blading - up to 6 miles a day, trying 7 tonight - strength training - yoga - weight lifting - also lots of walking)
I take a medication for the time being too. It’s a big overnight shift, but I know that I have the resolve to do what I must to keep my health in order. This is a really stressful time in my life, but I think that makes my health situation a good challenge. For too long, I let my body fall into disarray. This is my chance to turn things back around. Since beginning my regiment, I have lost 15 pounds, added lots of lean muscle and increased my sprint distance, lung capacity, endurance, ETC.
I told a friend this morning that being at the office is like sitting in a movie theater weeks after the credits have rolled. I have nothing left to contribute to this place. It utterly spent everything I had to give. I am ready to move on to new opportunities, I just need to give the universe time to catch up with me. All in good time I suppose.
So, this is pretty much where I’m at. I’m thrilled that I have a fiancée who loves me and supports me through these tough times. I’m doing what I need to (and probably then some) to manage my health, and by all counts, I should be in a new job soon at or above my former salary. This could all seem like one giant blessing in a few months. Things could also go further south. Only time will tell. I’m just trying my best to stay in the game and excel. I’m actually grateful that I have my health to control and focus on now that another big chunk of my life is out of control. I’m also grateful for the Schmodcast review site to further provide things for me to focus on besides my shitty work situation.
I’m making negatives into positives. It’s all I can do to weather the storm. I am a grown man now, have been for some time. I see that life is cyclical. This phase will give birth to a better time that will make this time seem inconsequential. I just have to wait it out.
That’s life.