I miss Sapherical Emerald
Sapherical Emerald (or at least that's how I'm naming the company) is a water utility company that I previously worked in. I resigned primarily due to how my department head has been treating me. I was supposed to be "promoted" but considering that their policy/methods regarding salary increases resulting from promotions are very sketchy and something most of us do not agree on, I decided that it was not worth waiting for my promotion to fully materialize.
Sapherical Emerald has a lot of divisions, and the group I worked with is Project Management. And I guess one of the things I liked about Sapherical Emerald is that the business is very interesting, even if I had absolutely zero background with construction or project management or water utilities prior to my employment there. There were a lot of intelligent and seasoned employees who I could ask questions to (including Irene), and I leared a lot from them. And the things that our company - or even just the Project Management division - does, matter in a tangible way, even if I rarely see any of the projects that the company is making. Apart from that, since water is a necessity, I know that these projects are important not just for the company to earn money but for the customers to receive water that they absolutely need.
I guess... I realized that I let go of a lot of things in my life in a span of around 13 months. In February of 2018 I let go of Sapherical Emerald. And in March 2019 I let go of Irene. I know both of those instances were my decision, so this is just... me receiving the consequences of my actions. While I let go of Sapherical Emerald, I still think about its intricacies until now because, again, the business is very interesting to me. And while I let go of Irene, I still think about her until now because... Well, I'm not sure I'm entirely comfortable to say it out loud, but you should be able to guess why.
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It's not that Gamma Systematics is bad. It has its pros and cons. I love the people here. Everyone here that I have worked for and with - from my teamates to my supervisor to my manager to my foreign counterparts - are wonderful, and I have always said that the main reason I like working here is because of the people. But I guess the nature of the business is uninteresting, and it does not really "involve" us. It's more of a support role, and the business can 100% exist without us.
I know that the next thing I should do is to look for the next thing that I will look forward to, but... so far I don't really have anything to look forward to. Video games are nice, but I know they are temporary. Maybe I look forward to the end of this fucking pandemic, but honestly, when is that going to arrive? I am realistically/pessimistically thinking that we will still be like this even until at least 2022. So... I guess I have to think about the looking forward to.
I have to go. My lunchbreak already ended about 20 minutes ago.
Sapherical Emerald has a lot of divisions, and the group I worked with is Project Management. And I guess one of the things I liked about Sapherical Emerald is that the business is very interesting, even if I had absolutely zero background with construction or project management or water utilities prior to my employment there. There were a lot of intelligent and seasoned employees who I could ask questions to (including Irene), and I leared a lot from them. And the things that our company - or even just the Project Management division - does, matter in a tangible way, even if I rarely see any of the projects that the company is making. Apart from that, since water is a necessity, I know that these projects are important not just for the company to earn money but for the customers to receive water that they absolutely need.
I guess... I realized that I let go of a lot of things in my life in a span of around 13 months. In February of 2018 I let go of Sapherical Emerald. And in March 2019 I let go of Irene. I know both of those instances were my decision, so this is just... me receiving the consequences of my actions. While I let go of Sapherical Emerald, I still think about its intricacies until now because, again, the business is very interesting to me. And while I let go of Irene, I still think about her until now because... Well, I'm not sure I'm entirely comfortable to say it out loud, but you should be able to guess why.
............
It's not that Gamma Systematics is bad. It has its pros and cons. I love the people here. Everyone here that I have worked for and with - from my teamates to my supervisor to my manager to my foreign counterparts - are wonderful, and I have always said that the main reason I like working here is because of the people. But I guess the nature of the business is uninteresting, and it does not really "involve" us. It's more of a support role, and the business can 100% exist without us.
I know that the next thing I should do is to look for the next thing that I will look forward to, but... so far I don't really have anything to look forward to. Video games are nice, but I know they are temporary. Maybe I look forward to the end of this fucking pandemic, but honestly, when is that going to arrive? I am realistically/pessimistically thinking that we will still be like this even until at least 2022. So... I guess I have to think about the looking forward to.
I have to go. My lunchbreak already ended about 20 minutes ago.