The Denial
In my new work, so far... I have not been doing anything that is "groundbreaking." I'm currently stuck in a highly repetitive task (which is the nature of the work.) The role is actually new, so we are still figuring things out.
In my old work at Sapherical Emerald... I realize that I have not completely moved on yet. Maybe about two weeks ago I still had some bouts of anger even just by thinking about the company and Sir Tiesel and a new immediate superior. I still had bouts of jealousy when I think of the people who actually grow there and succeed there and who actually earn a lot there. I had the mind to unfollow everyone who worked in Sapherical Emerald.
In my Church, I do not trust my cell group leader. (A cell group is a small group of Christians who usually congregate to talk about the Bible, God, Christian living, concerns and items about members, and usually pray together.) There is something about him... Do you know the concept of... Some people listen with the goal of understanding, but some people listen with the goal of responding. I feel as if he is on the responding side. Not that I don't want him to respond, but... you know.
In my Church, I still do not have a ministry. Maybe I'm supposed to be the one approaching our leaders to ask what I could do as part of the ministry? Maybe I am not yet ready to do what God wants me to do as His servant? I will say with haste that... looking back, I do not see my Church as playing an actual role in my growth as a Christian. Maybe it's a test...
I think I was still supposed to write about other things.