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as most of you do not know, i am currently not in school. i hate lying or avoiding the question when people ask me things regarding school but i hate talking about it. i guess it's because i've been in school since... well kindergarden and have never stopped. i wanted to go go go and just finish but it did not pan out like that. so i'm disappointed in myself for this change but i know it is something that needed to be done. i've always enjoyed school but found that this last quarter was horrible. i hated going, i hated the classes, the teachers, the students, the program and felt like i was slipping away and becoming a little depressed. i've never felt that way about school and this was causing so much anxiety and making me feel like i was loosing control. i missed almost every single one of my classes, i never payed attention, and i did not know how i was going to get through the day, let alone two more years. well i decided about two months ago (a little over a month into the school quarter) that i just couldn't do it anymore. so i filed a leave of absence. i'm not dropping out of school, i want to go back now if i could, but i needed to make some changes in order for me to be happy and succeed. with my time off i reflected a lot on that month of school and what went so wrong, and it was the dance program. no need to get into the reasons why, but i'm not happy being a part of the dance world (as a dancer that is, i still want to teach and own my own studio). i did not like the dance program, i certainly DID NOT like fellow dancers, and knew it was not my place. and i feel good realizing that, and now when i go back in a different program i know i'll be a lot happier and will get through school like i always have. the next step is deciding what to do next. i would like to get back into a business major but UCSD does not offer that. so i either have to pick some random major at UCSD and graduate with that, or transfer to SDSU and do a business major there. i don't really want to do either. i want to stay at UCSD but i don't know what major i would do, and i want business but i don't know what would be involved in going to SDSU and how that would work out. i need to talk to a counselor. i don't start school again until september so i have a lot of time to figure that out.
work is great! as usual. i make good money, i love the manager, i love the co workers, and i love hating our general manager. she has a great time complaining about me, and i have a great time making her know that i don't care what she thinks. i picked up a new day a week since i'm not in school anymore. i have to find something to do with all this new free time!
my sister had her first dance where the girls ask the boys and she got up enough guts to ask someone. a senior at that! and he said yes. but then called her about two days ago to let her know that he doesn't want to go anymore. i felt so bad for her but she said she was really happy because she got really annoyed with him lately but didn't want to cancel on him. typical high schoolers.
our new roommate aimee moved in a few weeks ago. she's SO sweet. such a nice girl. and quite pretty if i must say. i just found out she is a singer! and i'm very impressed with her songs. please take a look at her song autumn people, i think it's just beautiful. -------> http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=75408153
johnny finished making our new coffee table. it's amazing. next on his to do list is our new dining room table, a new desk, and a butcher block for the kitchen. home and garden magazine here we come!
so i really want '08 to be one of my best years. and so far it's getting to be. we got my little baby Eire! here are a few more pictures...
and here is cute oliver pug.
we also got a new car on monday!
next on my making '08 great list is a tattoo and more traveling. we're going to ireland/switzerland/and italy in september and texas with tess and jordan in the summer. and maybe denver to see anne. who knows. but while i'm not in school i want to take full advantage and have an amazing time.
as most of you do not know, i am currently not in school. i hate lying or avoiding the question when people ask me things regarding school but i hate talking about it. i guess it's because i've been in school since... well kindergarden and have never stopped. i wanted to go go go and just finish but it did not pan out like that. so i'm disappointed in myself for this change but i know it is something that needed to be done. i've always enjoyed school but found that this last quarter was horrible. i hated going, i hated the classes, the teachers, the students, the program and felt like i was slipping away and becoming a little depressed. i've never felt that way about school and this was causing so much anxiety and making me feel like i was loosing control. i missed almost every single one of my classes, i never payed attention, and i did not know how i was going to get through the day, let alone two more years. well i decided about two months ago (a little over a month into the school quarter) that i just couldn't do it anymore. so i filed a leave of absence. i'm not dropping out of school, i want to go back now if i could, but i needed to make some changes in order for me to be happy and succeed. with my time off i reflected a lot on that month of school and what went so wrong, and it was the dance program. no need to get into the reasons why, but i'm not happy being a part of the dance world (as a dancer that is, i still want to teach and own my own studio). i did not like the dance program, i certainly DID NOT like fellow dancers, and knew it was not my place. and i feel good realizing that, and now when i go back in a different program i know i'll be a lot happier and will get through school like i always have. the next step is deciding what to do next. i would like to get back into a business major but UCSD does not offer that. so i either have to pick some random major at UCSD and graduate with that, or transfer to SDSU and do a business major there. i don't really want to do either. i want to stay at UCSD but i don't know what major i would do, and i want business but i don't know what would be involved in going to SDSU and how that would work out. i need to talk to a counselor. i don't start school again until september so i have a lot of time to figure that out.
work is great! as usual. i make good money, i love the manager, i love the co workers, and i love hating our general manager. she has a great time complaining about me, and i have a great time making her know that i don't care what she thinks. i picked up a new day a week since i'm not in school anymore. i have to find something to do with all this new free time!
my sister had her first dance where the girls ask the boys and she got up enough guts to ask someone. a senior at that! and he said yes. but then called her about two days ago to let her know that he doesn't want to go anymore. i felt so bad for her but she said she was really happy because she got really annoyed with him lately but didn't want to cancel on him. typical high schoolers.
our new roommate aimee moved in a few weeks ago. she's SO sweet. such a nice girl. and quite pretty if i must say. i just found out she is a singer! and i'm very impressed with her songs. please take a look at her song autumn people, i think it's just beautiful. -------> http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=75408153
johnny finished making our new coffee table. it's amazing. next on his to do list is our new dining room table, a new desk, and a butcher block for the kitchen. home and garden magazine here we come!
so i really want '08 to be one of my best years. and so far it's getting to be. we got my little baby Eire! here are a few more pictures...
and here is cute oliver pug.
we also got a new car on monday!
next on my making '08 great list is a tattoo and more traveling. we're going to ireland/switzerland/and italy in september and texas with tess and jordan in the summer. and maybe denver to see anne. who knows. but while i'm not in school i want to take full advantage and have an amazing time.