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Motherfuck the rain.
I've been doing a lot of holding my head in my hands and staring at my knees the past couple days, with some thoughts that i'm not necessarily ready to deal with to accompany it. I don't like knowing that no matter how politely i ask, the world and life and other people and responsibility and eventually being a grown up isn't going to leave me alone. I try my very best to just stay out of everything's way, but that doesn't matter.
Life is a fucking bully and you have to do it life's way. Maybe i'm too young to accept it, but i just don't know how i can live in a world thats not on my terms, like this one definitely isn't. I'd like to pick up this dumb planet and shake it and shake it and shake it until i was satisfied with myself and then watch everything float back down differently. I'd keep doing it until finally one day it just gave up fighting back and let me have my life my way.
I just wanna know a single thing about myself that isn't accessible by perusing my facebook profile.
I just wanna be able to wake up and play my guitar and sing some songs and see my friends and not have to worry about everything around me ending every second.
I just wanna hide under my covers sometimes.
I've been doing a lot of holding my head in my hands and staring at my knees the past couple days, with some thoughts that i'm not necessarily ready to deal with to accompany it. I don't like knowing that no matter how politely i ask, the world and life and other people and responsibility and eventually being a grown up isn't going to leave me alone. I try my very best to just stay out of everything's way, but that doesn't matter.
Life is a fucking bully and you have to do it life's way. Maybe i'm too young to accept it, but i just don't know how i can live in a world thats not on my terms, like this one definitely isn't. I'd like to pick up this dumb planet and shake it and shake it and shake it until i was satisfied with myself and then watch everything float back down differently. I'd keep doing it until finally one day it just gave up fighting back and let me have my life my way.
I just wanna know a single thing about myself that isn't accessible by perusing my facebook profile.
I just wanna be able to wake up and play my guitar and sing some songs and see my friends and not have to worry about everything around me ending every second.
I just wanna hide under my covers sometimes.