Melodramatic and Overrated
I don't really even know what I have to say. I'm mostly trying to stave off my boredom by writing. What have I done recently? I saw an exhibit on hallucinogenic drugs at the museum of contemporary art last week. There was a fountain that spouted LSD instead of water. I was tempted to reach over and snag a few drops, but I didn't. Wow, uh I've pretty much done that, some shopping for pants and warm clothes, and nothing else. I have eaten every single meal off campus so far. That's pretty nice except almost everyone has been a burrito or huevos rancheros for breakfast. I'm really looking forward to mardi gras, and then visiting people in ny/boston. Atleast that's the plan. Oh yeah, my roommate might be getting kicked out for possession of pot. That's cool for me cause I like living alone alot. He hasn't been around much recently either, which is nice, only I havn't even had much to do. I can't steal music here at school cause of their goddamn firewall. Can't steal movies or tv shows, and I pretty much refuse to buy most of them. I'm running out of things to do alone, so I guess it'll be back to looking for friends soon. I'm trying to remember what makes life so fun, and it's such an indescribable thing that makes me happy. It can be in the littlest thing, like sitting in my car listening to good music after a decent meal. Or it can be the thought that I might actually like a girl here. But most of the time I'm just looking for some sort of purpose; class is even fun most of the time. It's mostly the weekends that are the worst. I never like going to bed early, and when I wake up there's always the question of what the hell am I gunna do. I really want to start doing lsd again. Only there's none around and no one to do it with. Well actually there's one guy, but we havn't found any. I wish getting drunk/high did something for me anymore, but most of the time it doesn't. God the sordid life of a rich white boy. I bitch about being bored, and so do so many people in this world. Yet, most of us have never had to fight for our survival, how weird is that. We've been born into relative ease. Most of the time it's more fun to make life difficult just to have something to do. I need some sort of intensity, whether it's to destroy something doesn't really matter at this point.