Thinking of you, whoever you are
Wello livejournal, it's been like weeks since I actually wrote something. It feels weird writing though now that people might actually read it. Should I start with events, should I go with what I happen to be thinking about? What will please the mob clamoring for more? I think people in general are a great deal stupider than they want to believe. I'm not even in the mood to be negative, it's just true. Christmas break has been much more enjoyable than pretty much my entire semester so far. I've really been having a good time and I'm not even doing that much. I'm enjoying the fact that no matter how shitty life gets, it just keeps on going and one day its greater than you ever thought possible. Like the ride home in Will's car from Meg's tonight. We were listening to black sabbath and no one was really talking and I was still slightly drunk. I was just enjoying staring out the window and thinking. Not that I don't think all the time, but no matter how hard I think sometimes it doesn't always make me happier. Tonight, however, I was groovin with Ozzy and havin a merry little blast inside my head. As I thought I noticed the lights from some little town way far across some empty space that was next to the freeway. I thought about the little town that it was and then I thought about how humans are always making something, pushing forward even at some small rate. Those lights were just that; light shining brightly in the darkness. It was good. Anyway enough seriousness, I enjoyed meg's, then zotz, and then scrubs at plumbers. Also, drinking is more fun than I remembered, maybe I should become an alcoholic? Oh yeah, riding a two person bike is far more entertaining than most people's entire lives. Being selfconcious is also a bitch. I picked it up somewhere between the end/beginning of my relationships this summer and being in L.A. It's like a little fucking whisper in your mind at exactly the wrong times telling you to think about something that is completely irrelevant, yet somehow it still gets you. If only there was a sure fire way to erase doubt. I takes larges amounts of logical thinking to keep it at bay. Ah well, live and learn.