May 09, 2008 00:36
it's come to the point where even the out of the ordinary is expected. there's little to no excitement left in this routine. tonight, i'm not on any drugs, not inebriated by any means. i slept in until 'round 2 and i'm going to stay up tonight to work on my project. i used to love the architecture program at tmcc. i really didn't have much to do, but the lectures were enticing. i get bored of things easily. now, i know architecture is my passion (as well as mythology in religion), but sometimes i get tired of learning and just want to go out and practice. maybe i'll move to montana and try to pass the architecture test. the aia is the worst thing that's happened to architecture. we're regulating (and therefore limiting) ourselves by our own people. there is little to no art in architecture anymore. well, there's art, but there's not a lot of creativity.
architecture is the greatest art form because it's almost permanent, and it's constantly used and appreciated by scholars. i don't want to be typical. i don't really care about the money. i can always get a second job to make end's meat. i just want to let go. other countries don't have the strict national regulations on architecture like we do. now sure, i don't want just any ol' schmuck to build a house that's going to break, but there needs to be more freedom in the field. you don't have to have a license to be a sculptor, you don't have to have a license to be a painter or a photographer or a moviemaker. architecture is art. you shouldn't have to have a license to be able to practice. after all, most buildings require an engineer's stamp anyway. i don't want to get my degree. i want to take classes. i want to learn, but i don't want the title. i've never been a fan of fame. i've always believed in open source.
i think i'm going to publish a journal this summer. and i'm going to take mushrooms and smoke a lot of weed to get closer to nature. i think you've got to escape every once in a while in order to find your niche. i feel sick right now and i'm tired of self destruction and i'm tired of procrastination, but it seems that everything is holding me back right now: society, popular culture, popular morality, popular mechanics. i want to create my own gaviotas. how much could a 50-acre columbian property cost, anyway?