So it's been a while...
The other day out of the blue I started thinking about Live Journal.
It's been years since I've checked out the Live Joural website, let alone posted that I couldn't even remember my username anymore---clearly I figured it out.
So much has happened that I know that I am so far from the person I was when I last posted that I also deleted this account and signed up with a new username. I ultimately decided against that because while I am nearly completely different, I firmly believe in the importance of one's past and no matter how different that girl was, she is still a part of my journey.
I did look into changing my username though...what a process!
My last post was 4 years ago (June 7th 2012). It had been a year after my aunt had passed from breast cancer, and a year into a very significant relationship.
Since that time my boyfriend turned into my fiancé, and subsequently my husband. We will celebrate our second wedding anniversary next week.
I went from finishing up a Bachelors of Arts degree to graduating with a Master's of Counselling diploma.
I lost my grandmother, build a house with my husband, finished a thesis, lived in another country, presented at a worldwide conference, got published in a research journal...and gained a bit of weight (insert frustrated eye roll here).
See, completely different.
And after all that, I currently work as a therapist.
Life is hectic, and maddening and magical---its not been perfect but I am certainly blessed.
Maybe that is why I felt the need to document some of it, and why I probably should have done so sooner. Except I have never been good at remembering to journal.
I met a (awesome) human in my Masters program who journals nearly everyday. She has bookshelves filled with journals dating all the way back to the 5th-6th grade. How lucky is she to have that to look back on---every emotion and milestone and situation.
I decided that I had been putting too much pressure on myself to journal a certain way (as if there is a certain way to journal) and then I remembered that journaling is a personal process to be done in whichever way I see fit.
My process is to journal when I journal (goodbye pressure!) and to journal for myself. I could care less if not one other soul reads this journal as long as I know that my soul does. I am not journaling my days, instead I am journaling my feelings and thoughts, my successes and failures, my joys and sadness’s for those are a part of my journey.
I will be journaling for me.
Now lets go back to that bit about weight gain (why God why?!?)...It’s where I plan to restart this journaling journey.
I figured I needed to write it down. You see my head if full and sometimes jumbles and my thoughts itch to be freed onto a page of some sorts. I need to write it out so that my plan becomes a reality. So here it is.
I plan to cut sugar out of my diet. Don’t get me wrong I L.O.V.E. sugar but sugar doesn’t much love me---it hates my waist, and my skin and my energy level. It makes me sad and tired and lethargic. But my word is it addictive!
As I write it so shall it be...me and sugars are breaking up and here are the ground rules!
1. No desserts or sweets
2. No sugary drinks
3. No refined carbs (all the white stuff---bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, etc)
4. No artificial sweeteners/sugar substitutes
5. No sugary condiments
6. No alcoholic beverages (bye bye Wine and GoT nights)
7. If it occurs naturally its okay (fruit, veggies, sweet potatoes, brown rice, whole wheat)
While this is going to be extremely painful at first (stay tuned for the posts) I know in the long run I will feel so much better. In the spirit of realism I plan to do this for two months and assess from there.
They say it only takes 21 days to break a bad habit and to develop a healthier one so wish me luck cause here I go.
-Girlygirl
It's been years since I've checked out the Live Joural website, let alone posted that I couldn't even remember my username anymore---clearly I figured it out.
So much has happened that I know that I am so far from the person I was when I last posted that I also deleted this account and signed up with a new username. I ultimately decided against that because while I am nearly completely different, I firmly believe in the importance of one's past and no matter how different that girl was, she is still a part of my journey.
I did look into changing my username though...what a process!
My last post was 4 years ago (June 7th 2012). It had been a year after my aunt had passed from breast cancer, and a year into a very significant relationship.
Since that time my boyfriend turned into my fiancé, and subsequently my husband. We will celebrate our second wedding anniversary next week.
I went from finishing up a Bachelors of Arts degree to graduating with a Master's of Counselling diploma.
I lost my grandmother, build a house with my husband, finished a thesis, lived in another country, presented at a worldwide conference, got published in a research journal...and gained a bit of weight (insert frustrated eye roll here).
See, completely different.
And after all that, I currently work as a therapist.
Life is hectic, and maddening and magical---its not been perfect but I am certainly blessed.
Maybe that is why I felt the need to document some of it, and why I probably should have done so sooner. Except I have never been good at remembering to journal.
I met a (awesome) human in my Masters program who journals nearly everyday. She has bookshelves filled with journals dating all the way back to the 5th-6th grade. How lucky is she to have that to look back on---every emotion and milestone and situation.
I decided that I had been putting too much pressure on myself to journal a certain way (as if there is a certain way to journal) and then I remembered that journaling is a personal process to be done in whichever way I see fit.
My process is to journal when I journal (goodbye pressure!) and to journal for myself. I could care less if not one other soul reads this journal as long as I know that my soul does. I am not journaling my days, instead I am journaling my feelings and thoughts, my successes and failures, my joys and sadness’s for those are a part of my journey.
I will be journaling for me.
Now lets go back to that bit about weight gain (why God why?!?)...It’s where I plan to restart this journaling journey.
I figured I needed to write it down. You see my head if full and sometimes jumbles and my thoughts itch to be freed onto a page of some sorts. I need to write it out so that my plan becomes a reality. So here it is.
I plan to cut sugar out of my diet. Don’t get me wrong I L.O.V.E. sugar but sugar doesn’t much love me---it hates my waist, and my skin and my energy level. It makes me sad and tired and lethargic. But my word is it addictive!
As I write it so shall it be...me and sugars are breaking up and here are the ground rules!
1. No desserts or sweets
2. No sugary drinks
3. No refined carbs (all the white stuff---bread, pasta, rice, potatoes, etc)
4. No artificial sweeteners/sugar substitutes
5. No sugary condiments
6. No alcoholic beverages (bye bye Wine and GoT nights)
7. If it occurs naturally its okay (fruit, veggies, sweet potatoes, brown rice, whole wheat)
While this is going to be extremely painful at first (stay tuned for the posts) I know in the long run I will feel so much better. In the spirit of realism I plan to do this for two months and assess from there.
They say it only takes 21 days to break a bad habit and to develop a healthier one so wish me luck cause here I go.
-Girlygirl