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As unhealthy as this might be in the long run, getting completely immersed in my studies and my religious history books (don't ask, recent fascination) and completely ignoring all my issues is kind of nice. I rarely come up for air and ignoring almost everybody is just so therapeutic.
I know it's not very good to ignore all your shit and completely put a hold on trying to solve any of it, but it's just so nice not to have to think about that all the time anymore. On the bright side, I'm getting badass at math, so that's a plus! Yay me! :D A- in summer school, not too bad, not too bad. Hoping for a repeat performance for this next math paper.
I've come to understand that I don't have an 'issue'; my whole view on life and existing is so skewed and negative that it causes issues. The underlying problem is the way I view and have always viewed life and everything in it, including myself. It's not something I can solve myself despite being stubborn and having tried for almost my whole life to do it alone.
But for now... I'd just rather bury my face in books and put all this negative energy into something positive and get a fucking degree!
P.S. I am writing this while waiting on hold for StudyLink to ask them why they have sent me 9 rejection letters for the Student Allowance despite me having applied twice in the past 4 months.
It's a tad depressing being rejected over and over again when you didn't even ask. Wankstains.
I know it's not very good to ignore all your shit and completely put a hold on trying to solve any of it, but it's just so nice not to have to think about that all the time anymore. On the bright side, I'm getting badass at math, so that's a plus! Yay me! :D A- in summer school, not too bad, not too bad. Hoping for a repeat performance for this next math paper.
I've come to understand that I don't have an 'issue'; my whole view on life and existing is so skewed and negative that it causes issues. The underlying problem is the way I view and have always viewed life and everything in it, including myself. It's not something I can solve myself despite being stubborn and having tried for almost my whole life to do it alone.
But for now... I'd just rather bury my face in books and put all this negative energy into something positive and get a fucking degree!
P.S. I am writing this while waiting on hold for StudyLink to ask them why they have sent me 9 rejection letters for the Student Allowance despite me having applied twice in the past 4 months.
It's a tad depressing being rejected over and over again when you didn't even ask. Wankstains.