wow i dunno wut to say???
ok well i dunno wut to say but um.. so ya i think that m/b my life is gonna be a little bit better seriously cuz let me see well i am so tired of all this bullshyt that has gone on in life ok ok where do i begin .... well friday i work till um.. 1200am went to lori's for the nyte juan called me and ya so he was being a ass hole as usual ryte lol... did work saturday was suppsoe to go to mohegan sun to see daddy yankee but never went cuz, long story well so anywayz ya juan called and was like i wanna see u and shyt like that so i was like well i am going out ryte so anywayz um..... i was suppose to go wit sheila last nyte but the plans got messed up cuz CJ didnt wanna go out cuz he was tired so i was like iight then i ended up going to a&P to visit lori and shyt i ended up sleepin there so anywayz juan called me again and goes where i go i am at a&P and he goes i am commin to visit u i go ok fine ryte well i got into his car and i told him i am so stressed out and that basically i gotta do wut is best for me that i cant be wit him anymore i go jus hear me out.... i feel like shyt i am always crying mostly 95% of the time i am crying over pety stuiped shyt ryte so i dunno anywayz.... ya so um... he got mad and is like leave so i am like ok i am was so seriosuly but as soon as i got bac i was talkin to lori allt he sudden i started to cry i was like analyzing this whole situation trying to figure out did i do the ryte thing i dunno ryte but anywayz .... i started to cry and i dunno so ya lori is all like patty its for the best and sheila said the same thing lol... but anywayz i dunno so after me and lori left at like 900am a couple hours later my fone rings its him beggin for me to go bac to him and i told him ya no we are like oil and vinager we dont mix and he was like well atleast i think he was crying thats how bad he felt but i didnt care and sheila said if he realli cares he call u and thats wut he did but do i realli want him bac?? i dunno i cant go on anymore feelin like shyt so i dunno ryte now i am so confuzed my head hurts .... i feel horrible cuz i hurt him and i feel evne worse becuz i care bout him so much he is like i luv u am so sori i stress u out i realli love u and blah blah so i dunno today i worked and i got out at 200 i am jus home now chillin bored as hell i feel like shyt i wanna sleep i am so tired so owell m/b he will call m/b he wont i dunno ....
crushed/confuzed