i felt like writing more....
i didnt feel like doing anything else but throwing and writing and i cant throw because my mom wont let me so i guess i'll write....
today was interusting.... i weeded out a few more fake people... its just lovely... and those fake people dont believe that i should have an opinion or be myself when other people are around.... its soo much fun....
i think i'll be eating in the theatre for a while... i dont feel like going into the lunchroom... its just not worth it for me....i mean call me crazy but i want nothing to do with all of these 'fake' people......
haha it was funny today my mom pulled me aside and told me she thought it was really inmature of me to not sit with my friends just because a kid i couldnt stand was sitting there.... i didnt have the heart to tell her that they werent my friends....
hell i dont think my mom knows that i am pritty much a loner....i think i have about 2 good friends- friends i know i can trust and will be there for me if i need a shoulder to cry on or arms to hold me close....
"Solitude" by Evanescence
How many times have you told me you love her
As many times as I've wanted to tell you the truth
How long have I stood here beside you
I live through you
You looked through me
Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you
How many times have I done this to myself
How long will it take before I see
When will this hole in my heart be mended
Who now is left alone but me
Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true
Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I can't stay here another night
Your secret admirer
Who could it be
Ooh, Can't you see
All along it was me
How can you be so blind
As to see right through me
And Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you
Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true
solitude it a girls only friend when she wants to be herself......
i havent been the person everyone wants me to be so they leave or tell me to.... i only have myself to blame.... i dont deserve even the friends i have.... i'm not normal....i deserve to be alone....
(or at least that seems to be the message i'm getting from people anymore)
Superchick One and Lonely lyrics
It's not like they meant to hurt me
Watchin TV, checkin Britney, televised, my guys
Checkin out her thighs and I roll my eyes and sigh
It's not like I even need to be competing with unreality TV, fantasy
Not for a smart girl like me
Some days it's hard to be a one girl revolution
CHORUS:
Sometimes I have good days and it's good to be me
Sometimes I get the best of insecurity
And it's quite alright to be the one and only
But today I feel like the one and lonely
It's not that I don't know beauty is only skin deep
Just the skin I'm in, not the girl within
But one imperfection takes away my grin
Not that I think I'm ugly but
Acne throws me for a backslide
I won't go outside
Makeup can't hide how I feel inside
Some days it's hard to be a one girl revolution
CHORUS
(Oh, the one and lonely)
We all have bad hair days
Those nothing good about me days
Just keep moving on cuz they'll be gone
And we'll still be here going on
We have our yesterdays
No lunch cuz the jeans don't fit days
Just keep moving on cuz they'll be gone
And we'll still be here going on
CHORUS:
Sometimes I have bad days and it's hard to be me
Sometimes I get brought down by insecurity
And I have my days where I'm the one and lonely
But today I choose to be the one and only
Yea, I'm the one and only
yeah, well thats how i feel tonight.... such a mix of emotions... o well thats me.... all i know for sure is that i'm not changing....what you see is what you get and if you have a problem with it, fine but dont you dare lead me on thinking that ur ok with me because then your gunna wish you had never met me.... cus yeah, i can be a stubborn bitch.
today was interusting.... i weeded out a few more fake people... its just lovely... and those fake people dont believe that i should have an opinion or be myself when other people are around.... its soo much fun....
i think i'll be eating in the theatre for a while... i dont feel like going into the lunchroom... its just not worth it for me....i mean call me crazy but i want nothing to do with all of these 'fake' people......
haha it was funny today my mom pulled me aside and told me she thought it was really inmature of me to not sit with my friends just because a kid i couldnt stand was sitting there.... i didnt have the heart to tell her that they werent my friends....
hell i dont think my mom knows that i am pritty much a loner....i think i have about 2 good friends- friends i know i can trust and will be there for me if i need a shoulder to cry on or arms to hold me close....
"Solitude" by Evanescence
How many times have you told me you love her
As many times as I've wanted to tell you the truth
How long have I stood here beside you
I live through you
You looked through me
Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you
How many times have I done this to myself
How long will it take before I see
When will this hole in my heart be mended
Who now is left alone but me
Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true
Everyone leaves me stranded
Forgotten, abandoned, left behind
I can't stay here another night
Your secret admirer
Who could it be
Ooh, Can't you see
All along it was me
How can you be so blind
As to see right through me
And Ooh, Solitude,
Still with me is only you
Ooh, Solitude,
I can't stay away from you
Ooh, Solitude,
Forever me and forever you
Ooh, Solitude,
Only you, only true
solitude it a girls only friend when she wants to be herself......
i havent been the person everyone wants me to be so they leave or tell me to.... i only have myself to blame.... i dont deserve even the friends i have.... i'm not normal....i deserve to be alone....
(or at least that seems to be the message i'm getting from people anymore)
Superchick One and Lonely lyrics
It's not like they meant to hurt me
Watchin TV, checkin Britney, televised, my guys
Checkin out her thighs and I roll my eyes and sigh
It's not like I even need to be competing with unreality TV, fantasy
Not for a smart girl like me
Some days it's hard to be a one girl revolution
CHORUS:
Sometimes I have good days and it's good to be me
Sometimes I get the best of insecurity
And it's quite alright to be the one and only
But today I feel like the one and lonely
It's not that I don't know beauty is only skin deep
Just the skin I'm in, not the girl within
But one imperfection takes away my grin
Not that I think I'm ugly but
Acne throws me for a backslide
I won't go outside
Makeup can't hide how I feel inside
Some days it's hard to be a one girl revolution
CHORUS
(Oh, the one and lonely)
We all have bad hair days
Those nothing good about me days
Just keep moving on cuz they'll be gone
And we'll still be here going on
We have our yesterdays
No lunch cuz the jeans don't fit days
Just keep moving on cuz they'll be gone
And we'll still be here going on
CHORUS:
Sometimes I have bad days and it's hard to be me
Sometimes I get brought down by insecurity
And I have my days where I'm the one and lonely
But today I choose to be the one and only
Yea, I'm the one and only
yeah, well thats how i feel tonight.... such a mix of emotions... o well thats me.... all i know for sure is that i'm not changing....what you see is what you get and if you have a problem with it, fine but dont you dare lead me on thinking that ur ok with me because then your gunna wish you had never met me.... cus yeah, i can be a stubborn bitch.