sorry i'm not in a good mood... i just need to vent a little....
have you ever just felt like you were ment to do something and thats all you were ment to do? for example you were ment to make people happy yet you were never to find true happyness yourself...yea making those people happy made you feel good but you have an emptyness inside that just wont go away no matter how hard you try, how many guys you flirt with, no matter how many times you say "my time will come" the emptyness just sticks with you... it never goes away...
the last thing i want in life is for people to pity me, so if anyone bothers to read this please dont because thats not what i'm trying to do... i'm venting...i'll feel better later, i promice.
and then you go places and you cant turn around without someone making out behind you and you dont hate them... actually the opposite, you wish them well, and continue to look at yourself and say "why cant that be me?" and then 2 seconds later you think.. "dangit... that will be me some day..." and you go back and forth with yourself all night and all you want is for the hurting in your stomach to go away but it wont and all u want to do is cry, but you know you cant because someone will see and they will tell someone else and then you have people feeling bad for you and thats the last thing you want...
grrrr....
but then again if the world didnt suck we would all fall off....
o well... not all people are ment to be happy, some were ment to only bring happyness...
the last thing i want in life is for people to pity me, so if anyone bothers to read this please dont because thats not what i'm trying to do... i'm venting...i'll feel better later, i promice.
and then you go places and you cant turn around without someone making out behind you and you dont hate them... actually the opposite, you wish them well, and continue to look at yourself and say "why cant that be me?" and then 2 seconds later you think.. "dangit... that will be me some day..." and you go back and forth with yourself all night and all you want is for the hurting in your stomach to go away but it wont and all u want to do is cry, but you know you cant because someone will see and they will tell someone else and then you have people feeling bad for you and thats the last thing you want...
grrrr....
but then again if the world didnt suck we would all fall off....
o well... not all people are ment to be happy, some were ment to only bring happyness...