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I am never going to forget. i am never going to completly move on. i am never going to understand. laura and i sat here all day being sappy. reading sad love quotes, listening to cds, looking at pics, and reading old LJ entries. i'd love to say i am over it, hell i should be by now. but i kno that will never be the case. my feelings will never go away. i wish i could give jeff and ultimatum...tell him he can have me now or never, but i'd be lying to both of us. its obvious the second he says he wants me back i will drop everything to be there. idk why anymore. i need to get over it. if he doesn't want me now, i shouldn't want him ever. he tells me to move on, knowing very well i won't. i don't kno how to. i dont think it'd be fair to start something w/ some1 else if i am not fully into it... but i kno ur sick and tired of reading the same thing over and over again.. but guess what, i don't give a fuck, this is my journal, my outlet. i write on here to get things out, so i can kno what i was thinking at the time. so many people don't kno why i am not over jeff yet, well lets start the list: he's the only guy i've had sex w/ more than once, he's my longest relationship, my only boyfriend who was also my bestfriend, and the only guy i ever loved. i have never been so happy as when i was with him. i have never felt more comfortable or safe. he told me he'd never hurt me... but i knew it was impossible. he told me he loved me, and that changed. i don't blame him for any of this, all he is trying to do is make himself happy. and if thats not with me anymore i need to let him move on. if i love him enough i need to let him go... as hard as that may be. but i will be here as long as i can, i will take him back as long as i am not with any1 else...that may be stupid, it may be a mistake... but its mine to make
Here are some of the quotes laura and i found online b4:
(BTW i don't mean this as an attack or a guilt trip, it was just the mood i was in today and most of these quotes can be able my life in one way or another)
-Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So know how matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this."
-The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
- "Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry."
-You will never know true pain until you look into the eyes of someone you love and they look away.
-Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken. But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever."
-Should I smile because you're my friend, or cry because that's all you'll ever be?
-"When you smiled you had my undivided attention. When you laughed you had my urge to laugh with you. When you cried you had my urge to hold you. When you said you loved me, you had my heart forever."
-I was over him, I promise, but then he looked at me
and smiled, and I fell in love with him all over again...
-I see something that would make you laugh, or I hear a song that you'd listen to,
or I think of something that would upset you, and it makes me want to laugh,
and smile, and cry, all at once...I can't stop thinking of you
- Nessum maggior dolore, che ricordarsi del tempo felice nella miseria.
There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy.
-Where you used to be,
there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly
walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night.
I miss you like hell.
-Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.
- I never felt true happiness till I met you, but I never felt true sadness till you left me.
-Your heart isn't plastic, you heart isn't a toy, but if you want it broken, give it to a boy
Here are some of the quotes laura and i found online b4:
(BTW i don't mean this as an attack or a guilt trip, it was just the mood i was in today and most of these quotes can be able my life in one way or another)
-Yes I love him. I love him more than anything else in this world and there is nothing that I would like better than to hold on to him forever. But I know it's not for the best. So know how matter how much my heart is going to break, I've got to let him go so he can know just how much I love him. Maybe if I'm lucky, he'll come back, but if not, I can make it through this."
-The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
- "Love is when you shed a tear and still want him, it's when he ignores you and you still love him, it's when he loves another girl but you still smile and say I'm happy for you, when all you really do is cry."
-You will never know true pain until you look into the eyes of someone you love and they look away.
-Love is not written on paper, for paper can be erased. Nor is it etched on stone, for stone can be broken. But it is inscribed on a heart and there it shall remain forever."
-Should I smile because you're my friend, or cry because that's all you'll ever be?
-"When you smiled you had my undivided attention. When you laughed you had my urge to laugh with you. When you cried you had my urge to hold you. When you said you loved me, you had my heart forever."
-I was over him, I promise, but then he looked at me
and smiled, and I fell in love with him all over again...
-I see something that would make you laugh, or I hear a song that you'd listen to,
or I think of something that would upset you, and it makes me want to laugh,
and smile, and cry, all at once...I can't stop thinking of you
- Nessum maggior dolore, che ricordarsi del tempo felice nella miseria.
There is no greater sorrow than to recall in misery the time when we were happy.
-Where you used to be,
there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly
walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night.
I miss you like hell.
-Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.
- I never felt true happiness till I met you, but I never felt true sadness till you left me.
-Your heart isn't plastic, you heart isn't a toy, but if you want it broken, give it to a boy