Personal Letter to a Friend....
I was fine. The tears were because of the mood.. because I didn't want to let you go. I still don't. But I already have. And it wasn't until five minutes ago, playing Kingdom Hearts with the inability to sleep that it hit me. That the pain I'm feeling now, I can't just ignore it and say "I'll see Jeremy in the morning, everything will be better". I can't get a hug from the one person who makes me forget everything negative in the world just by stupid natural things.. like smiling.
And I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.
I feel like I'm already losing it-- I'm just beginning something really fucking sucky and I don't want it to last... but there's no saying when it will end... I'm guessing a week to a month. I'm hoping it just leaves by tomorrow morning. But I'm only human, not some strange creature life-form thing -.-
I will love you forever... and I can promise you that♥. And I know you know.
My heart is always yours, Jeremiah Boucher♥. The best of luck to you, sweetheart♥.
P.S. - Tell Mike I say Hi =)
And I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.
I feel like I'm already losing it-- I'm just beginning something really fucking sucky and I don't want it to last... but there's no saying when it will end... I'm guessing a week to a month. I'm hoping it just leaves by tomorrow morning. But I'm only human, not some strange creature life-form thing -.-
I will love you forever... and I can promise you that♥. And I know you know.
My heart is always yours, Jeremiah Boucher♥. The best of luck to you, sweetheart♥.
P.S. - Tell Mike I say Hi =)