hurt
wow. its amazing how much emotion can run through you in one day. i checked my livejournal right before i left for my other gram's house, and i was delighted to see that chris and evan commented. so i wrote back to them and then checked chris' xange. i was SHOCKED. i mean honestly i was so happy, even though ive been sick. i woke up with this horrible sinus headache and then i took some medicine and i was so dizzy i thought i was gonna pass out. but then i read it and was like well im glad that they are having a good time. but then i read the xanga, ready to burst with anger and tears. what the hell am i supposed to think after reading that? come on now. im not jumping to conclusions im just preparing myself for the worst. chris im even more mad at. i thought he was gonna straighten the boy out. not make out wiht some chick and leave evan alone with another. i mean i dont mind them hanging with other gurls. but like its the beach, they are half naked. what else can i expect? i wont even truly know if evan cheated or not. because he'd probably lie if he did. i bet he didnt even tell this jessica gurl that he had a girlfriend. i just dont know what to expect but im really ready to do something drastic. and im just gonna say it now. if he cheated, its over. if he didnt, its not. im gonna see btoh of them before school starts. i wont even yell, i just want them to see how hurt i am for putting me in this position that i have to be worried for the next 4 or 5 days. i just feel so stupid for loving btoh of them so much, and this is how they repay me???????? you guys better say something quick. thanks for hurting me even worse then evan already did. what a great day.