[-I work out!-]
My, oh my.. I've been slacking! This is usually how my pattern goes.. I update anything and everything and then just.. stop. Ha, I am back though.. for the time being. As usual.. I don't know where the days go. HOWEVER, I FINALLY went and tried 9 round (kick boxing)!! It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be and the fact that I actually showed up makes me super proud of myself because as I've said a million times.. I don't do shit like this. Anyway, I dragged Nadia with me. She struggled more then I did with the workout. The trainers were really nice (the first day)--and the owner was cool, too. I went there expecting to sign up.. and that's what I did. I got a "deal" on the prices of everything. There's no contract which I like. I paid for three months to see how I like it. Big bucks. But not really all that expensive for what it is. It's a 30 minute, full body workout. With personal trainers with you the entire time. I took Lisa the second day. And went by myself today. I finished the workout..but it was hard today.. really hard. My only complaints are... and I can't tell if it's just because I wasn't feeling the trainers that were there today.. is that they claim they modify the workouts for you.. which I most certainly need. However, it doesn't appear that they actually offer any suggestions about modifications. I am NOT in any kind of shape.. hence why I joined this gym to try and get better. Plus I've never really done any of these types of workouts before..however, today they wanted me to do things I told them I could not do--a burpee, for example. They didn't really offer any other alternatives. I had to kind of take it upon myself to make alterations to the work outs. It wasn't a huge deal.. but when you're the only one in the room modifying the workout (without any direction)... it made me feel uncomfortable. I mean the guy told me some things. He basically told me that I shouldn't be "standing there" while the others are doing the cardio-type work out. It came off wrong, and I know a lot of it is my self consciousness... but I just didn't like how he spoke to me. I know he was trying to help, and probably didn't think I was pushing myself enough.. But they have heart rate monitors that connect to a screen. The three main colors are green, yellow, and red. Green means you should go faster. Yellow is the goal (fat burning zone) and red means to slow down. I was red most of the class.. so I wasn't just dicking around. I don't know. Didn't rub me right today.. they are lucky they weren't there the first day I went there.. I don't think I would have signed up. I am still new and learning all the different work outs and such.. I just did not feel really supported today. The trainers were hardcore.. which is probably for the best. They seemed to take it more seriously. The younger trainers are a little more laid back.. which helped me feel more comfortable. However, where am I gonna get if I don't push myself.. I guess. Hopefully it'll be better the next time I go. I don't necessarily want to quit.. I just want to get better.. fast. I feel like I struggle with a lot of things in there.. I guess the more I keep going, the better I'll get. I asked some girl how long she's been going--she said about a month. She said she felt the same way when she started but can already do a lot more then she could the first week. Meh. As usual, I am the most out of shape overweight mother fucker in there.. or so I assume. Meh, me and my body issues. I think I am going to go to my normal gym--haven't cancelled it yet in case I leave 9 round--and just walk on the treadmill for a while. My legs were hurting really bad from the squats today.. they are feeling a little better now. Lisa gave me some advice to work out in between going to 9 round. I think the walking will help. I'll probably go again Thursday.
I finally got an interview on September 10th for adult probation. Trying to get in some kind of shape in case I get it.. I don't know how the physical requirements work for probation. However, I'd like to at least be able to breathe and not feel humiliated if I get in. I called in a few favors (with PO's I used to work with while I was at REACH) to get my name out there.. hopefully that'll give me the boost. I heard they are looking for female officers.. which is awesome. I'm also in the state already so I'll be easy to hire. Less paperwork will make my chances higher, haha. Anyway--just trying to get my stamina up again. I don't know where I went wrong. Okay, that's a lie.. I do know where I went wrong.. I just promised myself I'd never get back here.. but here I am. Oh well.. we can always get back, I suppose. I'll tell ya, though.. this getting old shit does not help. hahaha. Anyway, that's the good news going on in life right now. Oh, well.. I suppose that's all for now folks. Time for me to take a long snooze.
XO.
I finally got an interview on September 10th for adult probation. Trying to get in some kind of shape in case I get it.. I don't know how the physical requirements work for probation. However, I'd like to at least be able to breathe and not feel humiliated if I get in. I called in a few favors (with PO's I used to work with while I was at REACH) to get my name out there.. hopefully that'll give me the boost. I heard they are looking for female officers.. which is awesome. I'm also in the state already so I'll be easy to hire. Less paperwork will make my chances higher, haha. Anyway--just trying to get my stamina up again. I don't know where I went wrong. Okay, that's a lie.. I do know where I went wrong.. I just promised myself I'd never get back here.. but here I am. Oh well.. we can always get back, I suppose. I'll tell ya, though.. this getting old shit does not help. hahaha. Anyway, that's the good news going on in life right now. Oh, well.. I suppose that's all for now folks. Time for me to take a long snooze.
XO.