life's a bitch and then u die.
This will be a fairly long entry this time for the simple reason is that it has been a very rough few weeks for me and everything just went downhill from there.
2 weeks ago, I found out that my grandma and both of my aunts have been talking all kindz of shit on me. For instance: I don't take care of grandma, I fed her cold meals, I put her second to my friends, and I have slept w/ every gay guy in town! wut kind of shit is that! I have witnesses to say otherwise. And b cuz I said that I had witnesses I was called a liar and told that since I was calling grandma a liar, that she was no longer my grandma. U no wut conclusion I have come to about that?! I DON'T CARE!!! I don't need a grandma hu is gonna talk all kindz of crap on me and try to make me look bad to the rest of the world. I don't need that from anybody. That means all of my cuzinz, hu think they r just the best ppl in the world (christy) and the other cuzinz hu pretend to be ur best friend up till the very end (Katie) and then the others hu say they want to be just like u but then go behind ur back and stab u as many times as they can w/ a dull knife (sarah) and then the others I didn't really have a chance to hang w/, and my aunts, and my grandmother. Newsflash for u!!! I DON'T NEED U OR UR BULLSHIT TO LIVE IN CALI!!! I'm gonna come back and u will hate me for doing wut u didn't want me to do and for not depending on u for stuff n e more. It is over.
Well, The final day of it all was the worst. Shit hit the fan. My mom called me at 8 a.m. to warn me that they were rite outside and I needed to get up. So, I hung up w/ my mom and they came on and said "pack ur shit ur train leaves in 30 mins!" They said they were SHIPPING me back to MO. I'm not a goddamn box or sumthing that u ship! But n e wayz. back to the point. So, I went aobut packing my stuff thinking if I had time to call all of my friends, Debbie wouldn't let me have the phone. She said it was unimportant that my friends knew if I was moving, dead or otherwise. That pissed me off! So I went about packing all I could and Debbie flies into my room and starts to yell at me! That set me off! She kept saying "U could have killed ur grandmother! U could have killed her!" Well, I told her to shut the fuck up and asked her if she really gave a damn as long as she got the money that her mom left her. She went silent briefly. Then she picked up w/ the "and having all kinds of guys in ur room doing god knows wut!" thing. Tell me. Wut is the point of SAYING that sumone is having sex w/ a bunch of GAY guys?!?!? It just doesn't happen!!! But n e hu, then she tries to stick me for stealing stuff from them! I have never stole from them! If I needed sumthing or even wanted sumthing, all I had to do was ask! They say that I begged grandma for money? I knew better! Besides my mom cared enuf about me to send me money instead of breaking promises to the dead and to sumone they supposedly "love so muc." But u no, ppl will b ppl and sum r more horrible then others. So, when I come back and am living better then all of them put together and they come to me for help, FUCK THEM. They wasted their chances w/ me. Oh well, I don't have that family n e more. So, no big worry. well I guess I had better go for now b 4 I make this longer than necessary by bitching and yelling at nuthing.
*Believe in yourself. It will be the only comfort you will have when things go bad.*
2 weeks ago, I found out that my grandma and both of my aunts have been talking all kindz of shit on me. For instance: I don't take care of grandma, I fed her cold meals, I put her second to my friends, and I have slept w/ every gay guy in town! wut kind of shit is that! I have witnesses to say otherwise. And b cuz I said that I had witnesses I was called a liar and told that since I was calling grandma a liar, that she was no longer my grandma. U no wut conclusion I have come to about that?! I DON'T CARE!!! I don't need a grandma hu is gonna talk all kindz of crap on me and try to make me look bad to the rest of the world. I don't need that from anybody. That means all of my cuzinz, hu think they r just the best ppl in the world (christy) and the other cuzinz hu pretend to be ur best friend up till the very end (Katie) and then the others hu say they want to be just like u but then go behind ur back and stab u as many times as they can w/ a dull knife (sarah) and then the others I didn't really have a chance to hang w/, and my aunts, and my grandmother. Newsflash for u!!! I DON'T NEED U OR UR BULLSHIT TO LIVE IN CALI!!! I'm gonna come back and u will hate me for doing wut u didn't want me to do and for not depending on u for stuff n e more. It is over.
Well, The final day of it all was the worst. Shit hit the fan. My mom called me at 8 a.m. to warn me that they were rite outside and I needed to get up. So, I hung up w/ my mom and they came on and said "pack ur shit ur train leaves in 30 mins!" They said they were SHIPPING me back to MO. I'm not a goddamn box or sumthing that u ship! But n e wayz. back to the point. So, I went aobut packing my stuff thinking if I had time to call all of my friends, Debbie wouldn't let me have the phone. She said it was unimportant that my friends knew if I was moving, dead or otherwise. That pissed me off! So I went about packing all I could and Debbie flies into my room and starts to yell at me! That set me off! She kept saying "U could have killed ur grandmother! U could have killed her!" Well, I told her to shut the fuck up and asked her if she really gave a damn as long as she got the money that her mom left her. She went silent briefly. Then she picked up w/ the "and having all kinds of guys in ur room doing god knows wut!" thing. Tell me. Wut is the point of SAYING that sumone is having sex w/ a bunch of GAY guys?!?!? It just doesn't happen!!! But n e hu, then she tries to stick me for stealing stuff from them! I have never stole from them! If I needed sumthing or even wanted sumthing, all I had to do was ask! They say that I begged grandma for money? I knew better! Besides my mom cared enuf about me to send me money instead of breaking promises to the dead and to sumone they supposedly "love so muc." But u no, ppl will b ppl and sum r more horrible then others. So, when I come back and am living better then all of them put together and they come to me for help, FUCK THEM. They wasted their chances w/ me. Oh well, I don't have that family n e more. So, no big worry. well I guess I had better go for now b 4 I make this longer than necessary by bitching and yelling at nuthing.
*Believe in yourself. It will be the only comfort you will have when things go bad.*