Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!!

[confusedcrimson]

I know it is a bit late for that but on the 22nd is the real present. I knew I was pregnant and went for a check up. They did an ultrasound and guess what?!?! I am having twins!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what to do. They have me on medication to help me not have a miscarriage, but I will be a single mother. The father went back to his ex-

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[chastehellcat]

Has dillon talked to you again yet? My mom hasn't mentioned anything about this to me or my sister. I'm guessing Aunt Kim hasn't told my mom about it, or my mom doesnt want Katie and I to know. Your mom and my mom are talking more about grandma, Aunt Sharon, and Rocky. Grandma fell on Christmas Eve. I was so scared...

I forgot my purse in the theater and my dad wanted to go back and get it. Grandma, wanting to be the independent one, went on in to the lobby of the place she's living in. My mom was pissed at me and was describing my purse to my dad and I was standing there to make sure she got it right. It had my license, debt card, and some other important stuff in it, so I wanted to make sure the description was right. Katie stood there watching the chaos. Nobody noticed grandma was that far away. I sort of told Katie to go after grandma, but she just looked at me with one of those "you're not my mother" looks on her face. When mom finished, I started walking towards the door. Katie followed then mom. (The bottom floor grandma walked through is shaped like a J. The lobby is ->J that part and the place where her elevator is would be J<- that top part. There is a door (It has glass and a black frame, so you can see out of it.) next to the elevator that leads to the outside, where the car was parked. Grandma thought we were still outside, so she opened the door to let us in because it's faster that way. I don't know how, but she fell, the door shut (and locks from the inside automatically to keep people out), and she hit her head. I was the first to come around the corner. I saw her laying on the ground, with her head against the wall, calling for help. I ran to the door, screamed at Katie to get mom, and went outside. I forgot that the door locked so I let it shut behind me. The first thing grandma said was that she hit her head. I knew not to move her, but my brain just wouldn't let me think of what to do. (Ya know... call 911.) I saw my mom come around the corner and I screamed something at her (I don't remember what) and started banging on the door. She dropped the food and drinks (the dinner we never had the stomachs to eat after it was all over) and yelled "Oh my God!" and came running over. She let me in and I ran down the hall as nurses came running around the corner towards grandma. I felt like I was going to be sick. I also felt guilty, because, if I had not forgotten my purse, we would have all walked in together, and none of this would have happened. I started pacing the hall and lobby. I asked the nurses, who were calmly talking!!!, if anyone had called 911 and they said yes. I went into the empty, dark dining room and tried to call Allen. After several attempts on his house and cell phone, I gave up and called Brennen. He answered and I started crying, out of fear, sadness, guilt, and partially relief that someone was going to be there for me. I finally told him what happened. Then I knelt down and started to pray. I don't know who I was praying to, but I felt like it was all I could do at the moment. I walked out of the dining room, with Brennen still on the phone, and went to see if my grandma was still there. Katie had sent me a text asking where I was. As I walked down the hallway two people that worked there said "There she is." I'm guessing someone was looking for me. Everyone was still there, so I walked back down the hallway, still in tears...

[chastehellcat]

My dad came through the front door. I nearly hung up on Brennen as I said I had to go. I nearly fell into my dad's arms and started to cry harder. He said it was going to be ok and he wanted to take Katie and me upstairs to grandma's room. Mom went to the hospital with grandma. My dad was supposed to sing at a church that night and he asked Katie and I if we wanted to go with him or if we wanted to stay in the room and wait to see what happened. Katie and I both said we would rather have something to distract us, so we wouldn't go crazy from wondering. We drove to the church. Your mom called me on the way there and told me everything was alright. Earlier one of the people said there was blood in grandma's mouth, so I was even more freaked out because they didn't say why there was blood. Your mom told me she just cut her mouth, so there was nothing to be worried about. We got to the church, and Allen finally texted me and asked why I had called so many times. After I told him grandma fell and I freaked out, he tried to make a joke by saying that the last time he cracked his head open he went to the hospital!!! That made me furious. I told him it was not funny and I was not in the mood for jokes like that. He stopped talking to me after that. My mom came home on Christmas, and told me grandma was sorry. She thought she scared me when she fell, and she said she didn't mean to make me so upset and scared.

The whole Sharon and Rocky thing is making my mom upset. She hasn't gotten over the whole child-molesting thing yet. I don't blame her, but I don't know anything more about Rocky to have a valid opinion of him. Aunt Sharon hasn't talked to my mom about it, and my mom hasn't confronted her about it either. I think they should talk about it, but I'm not sure if that will ever happen. You were older when he was around, so you may have a better opinion of him. I don't even remember meeting him.

[confusedcrimson]

no I haven't heard from dillon since he told me he wanted to take care of us. I can understand where you would feel guilty. I have been there at some of her falls but I just wasn't strong enough to hold her up. It wasn't ur fault hun. I promise. Your mom knew about the pregnancy I dont' know why she didn't tell you. Maybe because she thinks I am a bad influence or something. She still won't talk to me but she will tell me stuff thru mom. I have a vague memory of rocky. I remember being afraid of him and that is about it. I hope things get better out there and take care ok? luv, Theresa